I mean, I technically already was hours-wise, but now I'm not a part-time cashier as well! 🎉
I just sent in my letter of resignation. I've been cutting down my hours more and more since I started taking commissions, (I ended up limiting my availability so much, that some weeks they only ended up scheduling me for 4 hours total) and I think I'm finally ready to drop it entirely.

The job wasn't terrible, all things considered, (my coworkers and even the vast majority of the customers have been lovely) but I hate working customer service so much, that even as little as 4 hours a week caused me a lot of dread. It just clashes so much with my people-pleasing anxiety, and also feels like a waste of time. Not to mention the pay is lower than commissions, especially taking into consideration the cost of transport.

To be quite honest, I've been wanting to quit for a very long time, but have struggled to take that final step due to a number of silly reasons. Feeling like I'm abandoning people, feeling like I should just suck it up and stop being a wimp, feeling like i don't deserve to not have a job I hate, and overall the fear of committing to quitting and having to actually confront my boss about it.
The last straw was that my scheduling app is malfunctioning, and I got a call from my boss, saying I was supposed to come in today. She asked me if I could come in anyway, and I said "I already made plans..... 😬" (I do not have rigid plans.) I then realized just how much I could not be fucked anymore. This isn't the first excuse like this I've made, even this month. Life is just too short to subject myself to things that I don't find fulfilling or lucrative, even if it's only for 4 hours a week. My current living situation is thankfully extremely flexible, so I'm in no danger even if commissions slow down.

Anyway, this will mean that i have a bit more time to work on commissions and stuff, so hopefully I'll be able to work through my waitlist (which is still very long) a bit faster! I'm also working on applying myself more, and getting more into the nitty-gritty of time-management so that I can improve my workflow. I'm also working on re-calculating my prices to more securely accommodate a workflow I am moderately comfortable with. Notably, I've realized just how much time I end up spending on things that are necessary, but I can't really charge for directly. (Communication with clients, posting, sending invoices, compiling information about comms, etc etc.) So future prices will take this into consideration and try to provide some coverage for it. This is all stuff I'm grateful to be figuring out now, while I have a lot of flexibility to fumble a bit.

I hope that you, dear reader, find the courage and the means to pursue something you find meaningful. If you're stuck in the same place that I was, let this be a sign that it's okay to cut off that thing that's been weighing you down. Everybody deserves to take steps toward their own happiness. Life is short, and you only have one!