Every time I thought about posting a new journal here, I would change my mind. Because posting a new journal would mean the previous one, from eight years ago, would no longer be on the front page.

And I like seeing that journal when I visit my Fur Affinity page. I remember writing it - feeling the optimism, happiness, excitement. I re-live those feelings each time I read it. For a long time, I needed that journal on my front page so I could easily find and remember those emotions when I had trouble feeling anything.

But it's been eight years. During that time I've built friendships, founds good mental health tools, and even written a few IRL journals I can look back through. And the next time I want to re-read that journal and remember Husband, I'll know where to look.

In the meantime, it's okay to post something new.