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Slow Productivity and Struggles
10 months ago
If anyone has been keeping up with my art over time, you'll probably notice that there hasn't been anything new in almost a month now...
That's largely because I really haven't drawn anything in the last month. October was sadly an unproductive month for me, and not going to lie, it really did a number on me. I saw kinktober projects from artists I follow, and I really was hoping to follow suit and do the same myself. Plenty of Halloween-themed art popped up as well, from the spooky, to the silly, the cute and the creepy; it's a month where ideas should flow and appear with relative ease.
Unfortunately, I had nothing, couldn't come up with anything whatsoever. =/
That being said, part of why I'm currently struggling to produce is partly due to just struggling as a whole. I'm worn down emotionally: work ruins me from an emotional and energy standpoint; dealing with people and their issues and their needs, some of which are honestly ridiculous, wears one out, especially when I'm already dealing with my own feelings and issues hanging over my head. I don't have time for my friends, I don't have time for my partner, I don't really have time for me, I feel distant, I feel forgotten, I feel insignificant, and it gets to me. :(
Speaking of my partner, the lack of interaction with her also has affected my art production. We haven't done much together as of late, and ideas involving us have run dry as a result. Sai's definitely one of my muses, a big source of my creativity, and not having time with her has not helped with the art struggles.
I often have asked what people want to see or enjoy seeing from me. I've been told also just to draw for myself, draw what I enjoy. I try...I've tried, but what now it's hard to know what I enjoy when what I enjoy...I'm usually unable to enjoy because my days revolve primarily around work and making a paycheck.
There hasn't been time for art, or at least I haven't been able to find the time or the inspiration for it lately. And honestly....I don't know what to do anymore. :(
If you've read this, thanks for listening. Hopefully, this struggle is temporary and passes. I guess we'll see.
That's largely because I really haven't drawn anything in the last month. October was sadly an unproductive month for me, and not going to lie, it really did a number on me. I saw kinktober projects from artists I follow, and I really was hoping to follow suit and do the same myself. Plenty of Halloween-themed art popped up as well, from the spooky, to the silly, the cute and the creepy; it's a month where ideas should flow and appear with relative ease.
Unfortunately, I had nothing, couldn't come up with anything whatsoever. =/
That being said, part of why I'm currently struggling to produce is partly due to just struggling as a whole. I'm worn down emotionally: work ruins me from an emotional and energy standpoint; dealing with people and their issues and their needs, some of which are honestly ridiculous, wears one out, especially when I'm already dealing with my own feelings and issues hanging over my head. I don't have time for my friends, I don't have time for my partner, I don't really have time for me, I feel distant, I feel forgotten, I feel insignificant, and it gets to me. :(
Speaking of my partner, the lack of interaction with her also has affected my art production. We haven't done much together as of late, and ideas involving us have run dry as a result. Sai's definitely one of my muses, a big source of my creativity, and not having time with her has not helped with the art struggles.
I often have asked what people want to see or enjoy seeing from me. I've been told also just to draw for myself, draw what I enjoy. I try...I've tried, but what now it's hard to know what I enjoy when what I enjoy...I'm usually unable to enjoy because my days revolve primarily around work and making a paycheck.
There hasn't been time for art, or at least I haven't been able to find the time or the inspiration for it lately. And honestly....I don't know what to do anymore. :(
If you've read this, thanks for listening. Hopefully, this struggle is temporary and passes. I guess we'll see.
