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10 months ago
there really is no reason to try to do anything anymore
no matter how right I try to make everything it all just ends up wrong
even if I did everything correctly, someone or something comes along to fuck it all up for me
no matter how right I try to make everything it all just ends up wrong
even if I did everything correctly, someone or something comes along to fuck it all up for me
Im sorry youre also going through it. ;(
I hope it all works out for us.
I'm always rooting for you buddy and always happy to listen if you need to vent or anything else
I believe that ur rough patch will end as sun will rise
Life has a way to fuck things up in the worst moments and worst ways possible, but you can get through it, either by yourself or with the help of the many people that enjoy you as a person and/or your works.
Maybe, even in an unfair world, it might just help you keep going to know that so many people appreciate you - or at least I hope so. What I'm saying is, don't give up, try and take consolation in that you did what you could and did everything correctly, even when it's frustrating that it didn't work out this time.
You make amazing art and work hard.
Please don't get discouraged.
i've felt the same way about doing things correctly and others coming in sideways and screwing it up. rug pulled out from underneath me. four jobs in a row let me go and i just had enough. i took a roadtrip with a pathetic amount of savings and drove down the coast, visiting family. came back still unemployed, really really broke, asking people for money and all that, but the time was for myself and i needed it. bought too many cigarettes. ate food that was too expensive or too shitty. slept in my car because nobody offers day-of campsites anymore. saw some trees. saw my grandpa one last time. it was all for myself.
something i didn't have to do, and didn't go as planned, and was full of mistakes. and it was fine. because it was for me.
no pretension here. if you can find something that you do not show anyone, do not tell anyone, and will not last, but that you do just for yourself, it helps. it really does.
except the cigarettes. it took me a month to recover my lung capacity and stop feeling pain in my chest. i would not recommend that coping strategy...