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Things went to shit!
a year ago
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I sure missed when the only inconvenience was my knee pain and family tension. Also I don't give a shit about correct grammar or typos rn, I'm doing awful so have some sympathy lol
So, I fucked up my knee more and I'm getting crutches today. This was because my dad had a (said to be deadly, but lived despite all odds) stroke and through some dumb shit didn't bring me to the hospital to visit me, I paid basically for everything including the God damn groceries and shit; I'm 900 euro down with only 20 left in 1 week. I've dipped in my savings. I felt like I had no family expect my dad and mom, who only talked to me and my mom. Now I'm back home, the family tells each other and me nothing about his condition anymore expect "he's the same" while ignoring that I've told them he talks with a lot of strain, makes jokes and WRITES numbers. They're saying he's crazy.
I'm emotionally blown out, there's been so much death and bullshit this year. I'm only telling the tip of the iceberg writing this. I want to be with my dad but I don't have money and I got treated like shit. I miss the people that died in the past year, about 6-7, I stopped counting. Pushing on is spiraling me into a depression so I'm going to lie down for a while. I'm going to start thinking more about myself than others, cuz I haven't done that in months if not a year.
I'm still around to keep an eye on account security or to look at art, goes across all platforms. This is the most open I'll be since I like to be private, I'll probably delete this when I feel better.
Where can I contact you if it's urgent?: bluesky or email, I only check those daily - https://zzzj.carrd.co/
Regarding to more casual interactions in private messages. I'll ignore everything that doesn't start with a "how are you" honestly, I really don't like being talked at anymore and especially now, it always had been a pet peeve. Hear me out, I'll hear you out. Deal? <:) I appreciate you offering distractions tho, just my energy is insanely limited
I don't know how to end this, maybe parts of this makes me sound like a cunt. I don't care, proudly am one. Thanks to all that care, cuz I don't see it often anymore. World sucks. I'm napping again. More active on Bsky rn but not that much, take care, Idk when I'll be back
So, I fucked up my knee more and I'm getting crutches today. This was because my dad had a (said to be deadly, but lived despite all odds) stroke and through some dumb shit didn't bring me to the hospital to visit me, I paid basically for everything including the God damn groceries and shit; I'm 900 euro down with only 20 left in 1 week. I've dipped in my savings. I felt like I had no family expect my dad and mom, who only talked to me and my mom. Now I'm back home, the family tells each other and me nothing about his condition anymore expect "he's the same" while ignoring that I've told them he talks with a lot of strain, makes jokes and WRITES numbers. They're saying he's crazy.
I'm emotionally blown out, there's been so much death and bullshit this year. I'm only telling the tip of the iceberg writing this. I want to be with my dad but I don't have money and I got treated like shit. I miss the people that died in the past year, about 6-7, I stopped counting. Pushing on is spiraling me into a depression so I'm going to lie down for a while. I'm going to start thinking more about myself than others, cuz I haven't done that in months if not a year.
I'm still around to keep an eye on account security or to look at art, goes across all platforms. This is the most open I'll be since I like to be private, I'll probably delete this when I feel better.
Where can I contact you if it's urgent?: bluesky or email, I only check those daily - https://zzzj.carrd.co/
Regarding to more casual interactions in private messages. I'll ignore everything that doesn't start with a "how are you" honestly, I really don't like being talked at anymore and especially now, it always had been a pet peeve. Hear me out, I'll hear you out. Deal? <:) I appreciate you offering distractions tho, just my energy is insanely limited
I don't know how to end this, maybe parts of this makes me sound like a cunt. I don't care, proudly am one. Thanks to all that care, cuz I don't see it often anymore. World sucks. I'm napping again. More active on Bsky rn but not that much, take care, Idk when I'll be back
