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Dark thoughts.
11 months ago
Hello there! Prepare for the wise words of a VERY chonky reptile!
Hey there.
I posted a thing over on my Bluesky, and I'm gonna share it here, too. I owe an explanation for my quiet behavior.
I'm just going to be honest; I've been in a dark, dark place for a while.
I haven't been very talkative for that reason. Even though my finals are over, and even though I passed them, my mind is still damn near rock bottom right now. There have been a few nights where I got close to the edge, and it's been extremely scary.
My mind has been racing in a constant downward spiral, always gravitating toward the worst case scenario. I'm scared that, somehow, I've hurt the people I love and care for, and I've had this constant feeling of this strange, numb dread that I can't shake. I'm ashamed to admit to the kinds of thoughts that have been coming into my mind.
I don't know why I'm really writing this, to be honest. I guess I just want to communicate why I've been so quiet and get this all off of my chest. This is a really scary, nerve-wracking time for me, and I'm sorry. I wish I could just constantly be the fat, happy lizard you all enjoy seeing get into big shenanigans, but I just haven't been myself as of late.
I don't really expect anything from posting all this, I just want to be honest about where my head is at. I'm sorry that it's so dark.
I posted a thing over on my Bluesky, and I'm gonna share it here, too. I owe an explanation for my quiet behavior.
I'm just going to be honest; I've been in a dark, dark place for a while.
I haven't been very talkative for that reason. Even though my finals are over, and even though I passed them, my mind is still damn near rock bottom right now. There have been a few nights where I got close to the edge, and it's been extremely scary.
My mind has been racing in a constant downward spiral, always gravitating toward the worst case scenario. I'm scared that, somehow, I've hurt the people I love and care for, and I've had this constant feeling of this strange, numb dread that I can't shake. I'm ashamed to admit to the kinds of thoughts that have been coming into my mind.
I don't know why I'm really writing this, to be honest. I guess I just want to communicate why I've been so quiet and get this all off of my chest. This is a really scary, nerve-wracking time for me, and I'm sorry. I wish I could just constantly be the fat, happy lizard you all enjoy seeing get into big shenanigans, but I just haven't been myself as of late.
I don't really expect anything from posting all this, I just want to be honest about where my head is at. I'm sorry that it's so dark.
worldtraveler
~worldtraveler
Hey now, if we don't go through these dark moments, how can we truly appreciate the happy ones? We're here for ya.
Gooeyark
~gooeyark
Not all is lost, and around this time of year our emotions and headthoughts can get the best of us. I am sorry you haven’t been in a good state of mind as of lately. Here’s to seeing silver linings come your way~ you got friends and fans to support you! :]
Dialganite
~leonidas4life
Don't be ashamed man. We all go through dark times. If we never did, the good times just wouldn't become more bittersweet. Life would just be a boring one way road without the dark times. Don't be ashamed of these feelings. It's natural to feel down and out and not always happy go getting. Like I said to 
Fattydragonite, we're more than the characters we are on the outside here. We're all still people. And we shouldn't always hide who we are. We can't always pretend to be this character everyone sees us as. Friends and mutuals come in and we all appreciate who each and every one of us truly are. Good friends is definitely something to be proud of. Don't lose hope man. Do what you can
Fattydragonite, we're more than the characters we are on the outside here. We're all still people. And we shouldn't always hide who we are. We can't always pretend to be this character everyone sees us as. Friends and mutuals come in and we all appreciate who each and every one of us truly are. Good friends is definitely something to be proud of. Don't lose hope man. Do what you can 
DBZFan12
~dbzfan12
Just be yourself; don't be who others want you to be.
Xandromeda
~xandromeda
It's okay, we all have dark times. I know what that's like. Take care of yourself, okay?
*hugs tightly*
