Iv always been like this. always tired and always angery. I have tried to be optimistic and attempted a peaceful life without pain and suffering. but i cannot ignor the fact anymore that iv always been an angery indiviaual.

im tired of people mostly. as an introvert is always found peace when im alone. sometimes people are great. in small short doses. but lets be frank. people in general are stupid dumb panicy animals who dont think.

when someone makes a comment about something to someone they dont know without considering the consquinces. especaly if that person is as immature as a child is. it can leave an impression and cause others to instantly burn bridges.

I use to be the kind of person who would try very very hard to understand why someone is the way they are. and try to make amends and someone fix the problem. but im so very tired and feel walked all over without getting anywhere. people have issues. people have problems. Im tired of trying ot fix people. im done with it.

from now on im just going to let things be and move on my own path. ignoring those who. dont matter to me.

If you want to have an intellgent conversation with me fine lets have one and mabey even debate alittle. sure im alright with that.

but do no assume anything. you do that your makeing an ass out of u and me.

life has enough problems in it already that we dont need ignorant immature children makeing stupid mistakes and leaveing comments without context of their arguments.

I dont have the time, nor the paitance anymore to deal with any of it. Im getting old and im discovering myself Careing less and less what others think of me. Its not going to matter in the end anyways so do us all a favor and Shut the fuck.

Or if your incapable of that. go find your hill to die on and scream until your lungs hurt.

then once your done screaming. scream some more. the rest of us will be down here enjoying alovely meal and tolerating one another because weve already learned its not going to do much screaming.

just let it go already.

I speak hypcriticaly of corse. iv had my Scream on the hill moments too. iv tried to make thigns right and i have tried to shout out. but im a silent protaganist in my own story. while others may view me as the villian. i have just one thing to say to them.

Look in a mirror. and ask yourself

Are You a Hero?

Or

Are you a villian?

then ask others what they think. im sure everyone around you will agree that your the hero.

but deep down.

you know you think yourself a villian. and youll be alright with that..

because your doing the right thing rigth?

you are. just remember that. Your doing what YOU think is right.

while others may not think that. just remember. no ones looking. no ones watching. until they do when you make a stupid mistake out of lust, vanity or some other personal gain thing. your doing it for YOUr own sake. and no one eles.

there is nothing more charitable than doing something that hurts you tohelp another. remember that. personal sacrifice is strong when its to save another persons life but there is always a cost.

and humans in genral. are selfish. theyll do things for their own gain.

and we as a soceity. have benefited from helping each other. so just remember. your not just helping yourself but hurting others when you do something so stupid that it makes you the fool. espealy when no ones looking. the damage cannot be undone.

all that being said.

Be safe out there. and dont do anything foolish.

I love you all. be at peace. and get teh fuck along you dumbasses. because we're all in this together.

Peace.