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Absence and General Apologies
9 months ago
Hey ya'll,
Geez its been a while since I've done one of these, but I wanted to throw together a quick journo to not only explain my growing absence, but to apologize to those I've been in contact with over the years. Over the past maybe 2 years, my motivation to draw, or create in general, has drastically declined. I've found myself growing more distant, and others, entirely dethatched, from people I once enjoyed talking with. I've purged my discord's friends list, stopped responding to notes, and barely interact with comments. I am trying to fix this, but I'm unsure how to. I find myself engaging in projects I find exciting and challenging to complete, only to go 50% in and give up, never touching it again. I find myself interacting with a new person, getting to know them, and then just shying away less than a week later until they no longer have an interest in speaking with me. I don't do this out of malice, or self-pity, or out of annoyance, in fact, I very much want to talk with like minded individuals, but for some reason I just stop.
For those in the latter category, I apologize for my behavior, for simply "ghosting" you, as it were, I mean nor meant no disrespect, I wish I could continue talking to you, I wish I didn't feel such shyness towards engaging with you, and I wish I could go back in time and force myself to continue interacting positively with you. Maybe then I wouldn't be so alone, lol.
Sorry for rambling, have a Merry Christmas, and a hopeful New Year, take care.
Geez its been a while since I've done one of these, but I wanted to throw together a quick journo to not only explain my growing absence, but to apologize to those I've been in contact with over the years. Over the past maybe 2 years, my motivation to draw, or create in general, has drastically declined. I've found myself growing more distant, and others, entirely dethatched, from people I once enjoyed talking with. I've purged my discord's friends list, stopped responding to notes, and barely interact with comments. I am trying to fix this, but I'm unsure how to. I find myself engaging in projects I find exciting and challenging to complete, only to go 50% in and give up, never touching it again. I find myself interacting with a new person, getting to know them, and then just shying away less than a week later until they no longer have an interest in speaking with me. I don't do this out of malice, or self-pity, or out of annoyance, in fact, I very much want to talk with like minded individuals, but for some reason I just stop.
For those in the latter category, I apologize for my behavior, for simply "ghosting" you, as it were, I mean nor meant no disrespect, I wish I could continue talking to you, I wish I didn't feel such shyness towards engaging with you, and I wish I could go back in time and force myself to continue interacting positively with you. Maybe then I wouldn't be so alone, lol.
Sorry for rambling, have a Merry Christmas, and a hopeful New Year, take care.
First and foremost, I think you should forgive yourself and be kind to yourself. This decade has been total shit from just about every perspective I can think of and I think we all deserve some slack.
Also, your best friends will be understanding if you tell them how you feel. It might even be a good idea to let them nudge you into social stuff for a while even when you feel bleh at that moment. We all need social connections.
I know I'm just some rando on FA (lol!) but I'm here if you ever want to talk.
I feel that. still, a pleasure hearin from ya wether its once a week or once a year. eff the rules that say there needs to be constant management for one person to mean something to another.