Take your time man. Take all the time ya need. And merry Christmas to you too.

hugss

Greetings to the Dark Lord. I hope that everything on your side of the pond is going well. I am disturbed to hear that your mental health is anguishing further into despair... it seems related to the flurry of responsibilities of your new jobs. Am I correct in understanding that you have work in which you don't feel "spiritually fulfilled" so to speak? I've been down this dark path when I was a lot younger for a little while, and I know the harsh teeth and painful bite this situation feels like.

But you said it best, money is money. Artwork is godlike as it brings us to worlds that never were, but ultimately it is just an escapist fantasy in the end.

yaaa
why do i blindly keep accepting everything

Sometimes that's how it goes, especially when you are younger. Back then, I had a 120 kilometer round trip commute to a job that I had to take for no other reason than the great recession of 2008 was hitting my area hard and I had to get closer to the city to find work. The traffic, the parking, the interstate highways, they SUCKED!!! But I had to deal with it as it happened. Now I am in a far better situation. But sadly I had to 'pay my dues' so to speak, and work up my skill level to get more desirable to places that were better to work at.

I know it sucks to hear that, maybe you will get lucky and not have to wait as long as I did.

ya