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STILL ALIVE IN 2025!!! Status & Hopes
11 months ago
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;p Here's what's on the menu today!!!
Yessiree, from a suave server of dA who turned into a sniveling idiot, ThroughDarkDepths still lurks about!!! The issue, apart from a lack of confidence, time, or even interest in creating my own comfort smut (or otherwise) is that I have no idea where I should be to do it!!!
First off, the past few years has sucked the life & passion out of me; so much so that I lost the respect of some good friends who I wanted to believe I'd be the closest of friends with! The day they 'low-key' let me go, all I could do for several months was cry and/or try to find other ways to cope, such as play games, (-_-; I'm a Nintendo YTuber. That was NEVER gonna change from my childhood!!!)
THIS YEAR, however, was the bottom of the barrel for me!!! So many gaming distractions that often left me feeling hollow, the TWIT of X turning Twitter into an AI purgatory, and..oh yeah.. THIS ENTIRE SITE WAS HACKED FOR SEVERAL DAYS!!!!! (RIP Dragoneer)
So, in conclusion, I'm still the mostly endo vore loving deviant I try to come off as, but a lot of my passion, ESPECIALLY for role playing, has died a little more! It's not fully gone, but for whatever excuses I have, personal or otherwise, it's not nearly as strong as it was before 2020 plagued us (hehe.. bad joke. Sorry)
SO THEN.. what can I try to do in 2025?!?!?! Maybe lay off grinding in Pkmn and Sanic games for one!!! Between rushing to get all species on a single cartridge before the EShop for 3DS imploded.. and THEN racing to showcase all the Shadow EDGEhog stories and games on my UT channel (FYI: that did not happen), BEFORE he had a new Generation to grind through before my brother spoiled it.....ALL OF THAT..... =_= has left me supremely drained!!!!!
Starting off, I'm slowing down on playing any other video games this upcoming year, simple as that!!! That doesn't mean I'm devoting that extra time to my kinky hobbie (apart from oogling TOO MUCH ART from others), but not pushing myself past a breaking point with my love for gaming is a start towards rebuilding my passion for RPs!
But then.. WHERE.. DO.. I.. DO.. THEM?!?!?!?!
For clarification, ALL OF THAT vore passion USED to remain on DeviantArt, but the cracks started to form when my worst labtop EVER, Chromebook, could no longer allow me to use the dA chatroom, (the LESS I say about the Vista CPU, the better!!!). The migration to a private messaging site seemed to fix part of the problem, but I also decided to open the floodgates with Discord, and later this account and the one on Twitter! Jumping to the present, I DO now have a BlueSky account, (ThruDarkDepths), but I personally HATE trying to use BlueSky for nearly anything, (that goes TRIPLE when it comes to my SFW account, which I plan to delete)!!!!!
So, after multiple paragraphs of a text wall, let me list the facts:
-I have a DeviantArt account I barely use where I am being guilt-tripped by an annoyed fan who used to care about me.
-I HAD a private social account, most won't care about, that I outright abandoned after my closest friends 'low-key' wrote me out of their RPs.
-I have a Twitter/X account I DON'T want to abandon, but will ABSOLUTELY NEVER use for DM MESSAGES EVER.. AGAIN!!!!!
BlueSky.. with terrible suggestions for a timeline.. that may be the ONLY PLACE I CAN DM the people I met from Twit'n'X if not for..
MY DISCORD.. which my main channel has now been micromanaged to HELL with that I don't even feel like I'm the owner anymore!!! My replacement has been a channel called "Daint's_Dine_On_In", but I haven't been using that account as often as I should either!
AND FINALLY.... this.
This account.
The one I use less than DeviantArt!
*SIGH*
So, in absolute conclusion, I believe I want to migrate DMs to either Bluesky Social and/or Discord, depending on the other's preference. I will still like/retweet my favorite art or text of various kinks/smut on this site and on X, but I still want to some time in the near to late future post my own savory stories and some artwork a certain DanTheCountdowner spent too much time making for me back in the day!
BUT.. all of this.. takes time.. and energy IRL has burned away.. to achieve. I don't want to lie to those that do like the things I post; this isn't going to consistently happen more from now on!!! I have my own personal problems and demons I've over-explained to a point it comes off as an excuse to AVOID others, (which was not the case the majority of times I said it)!
I will not tell the stories again of why I feel like I isolated myself further from the people who care(d) about me! All I will say is I know I need to change how much I choose to interact with others without letting my bi-polar depression push me away from those people. All of this.. takes time and energy I do not always have to give, based on the BS I deal with on a weekly to monthly basis!
Wish me luck in the end of this, but I want everyone who once cared about me or even still care to know that I don't want to give up on my vore account or to have some fun/lewd interactions in what has often become ERPs!!!!! I'm still, unfortunately, only human in the end; I will try to meet halfway when I feel I can/want to try. That's just the person I am at the moment.
Thanks for reading all of this!!! I'd post it to dA, but as I hinted earlier, I'm kinda trying to move on from it, as it no longer hosts the kind interactions I need from it.
So, I ask you.. AND MYSELF.. when it comes to the depravity of unique interests that makes us dive deeper into the Rabbit Hole, (apart from mood swings)..
HOW DEEP DO YOU WANT TO GO?!?!
First off, the past few years has sucked the life & passion out of me; so much so that I lost the respect of some good friends who I wanted to believe I'd be the closest of friends with! The day they 'low-key' let me go, all I could do for several months was cry and/or try to find other ways to cope, such as play games, (-_-; I'm a Nintendo YTuber. That was NEVER gonna change from my childhood!!!)
THIS YEAR, however, was the bottom of the barrel for me!!! So many gaming distractions that often left me feeling hollow, the TWIT of X turning Twitter into an AI purgatory, and..oh yeah.. THIS ENTIRE SITE WAS HACKED FOR SEVERAL DAYS!!!!! (RIP Dragoneer)
So, in conclusion, I'm still the mostly endo vore loving deviant I try to come off as, but a lot of my passion, ESPECIALLY for role playing, has died a little more! It's not fully gone, but for whatever excuses I have, personal or otherwise, it's not nearly as strong as it was before 2020 plagued us (hehe.. bad joke. Sorry)
SO THEN.. what can I try to do in 2025?!?!?! Maybe lay off grinding in Pkmn and Sanic games for one!!! Between rushing to get all species on a single cartridge before the EShop for 3DS imploded.. and THEN racing to showcase all the Shadow EDGEhog stories and games on my UT channel (FYI: that did not happen), BEFORE he had a new Generation to grind through before my brother spoiled it.....ALL OF THAT..... =_= has left me supremely drained!!!!!
Starting off, I'm slowing down on playing any other video games this upcoming year, simple as that!!! That doesn't mean I'm devoting that extra time to my kinky hobbie (apart from oogling TOO MUCH ART from others), but not pushing myself past a breaking point with my love for gaming is a start towards rebuilding my passion for RPs!
But then.. WHERE.. DO.. I.. DO.. THEM?!?!?!?!
For clarification, ALL OF THAT vore passion USED to remain on DeviantArt, but the cracks started to form when my worst labtop EVER, Chromebook, could no longer allow me to use the dA chatroom, (the LESS I say about the Vista CPU, the better!!!). The migration to a private messaging site seemed to fix part of the problem, but I also decided to open the floodgates with Discord, and later this account and the one on Twitter! Jumping to the present, I DO now have a BlueSky account, (ThruDarkDepths), but I personally HATE trying to use BlueSky for nearly anything, (that goes TRIPLE when it comes to my SFW account, which I plan to delete)!!!!!
So, after multiple paragraphs of a text wall, let me list the facts:
-I have a DeviantArt account I barely use where I am being guilt-tripped by an annoyed fan who used to care about me.
-I HAD a private social account, most won't care about, that I outright abandoned after my closest friends 'low-key' wrote me out of their RPs.
-I have a Twitter/X account I DON'T want to abandon, but will ABSOLUTELY NEVER use for DM MESSAGES EVER.. AGAIN!!!!!
BlueSky.. with terrible suggestions for a timeline.. that may be the ONLY PLACE I CAN DM the people I met from Twit'n'X if not for..
MY DISCORD.. which my main channel has now been micromanaged to HELL with that I don't even feel like I'm the owner anymore!!! My replacement has been a channel called "Daint's_Dine_On_In", but I haven't been using that account as often as I should either!
AND FINALLY.... this.
This account.
The one I use less than DeviantArt!
*SIGH*
So, in absolute conclusion, I believe I want to migrate DMs to either Bluesky Social and/or Discord, depending on the other's preference. I will still like/retweet my favorite art or text of various kinks/smut on this site and on X, but I still want to some time in the near to late future post my own savory stories and some artwork a certain DanTheCountdowner spent too much time making for me back in the day!
BUT.. all of this.. takes time.. and energy IRL has burned away.. to achieve. I don't want to lie to those that do like the things I post; this isn't going to consistently happen more from now on!!! I have my own personal problems and demons I've over-explained to a point it comes off as an excuse to AVOID others, (which was not the case the majority of times I said it)!
I will not tell the stories again of why I feel like I isolated myself further from the people who care(d) about me! All I will say is I know I need to change how much I choose to interact with others without letting my bi-polar depression push me away from those people. All of this.. takes time and energy I do not always have to give, based on the BS I deal with on a weekly to monthly basis!
Wish me luck in the end of this, but I want everyone who once cared about me or even still care to know that I don't want to give up on my vore account or to have some fun/lewd interactions in what has often become ERPs!!!!! I'm still, unfortunately, only human in the end; I will try to meet halfway when I feel I can/want to try. That's just the person I am at the moment.
Thanks for reading all of this!!! I'd post it to dA, but as I hinted earlier, I'm kinda trying to move on from it, as it no longer hosts the kind interactions I need from it.
So, I ask you.. AND MYSELF.. when it comes to the depravity of unique interests that makes us dive deeper into the Rabbit Hole, (apart from mood swings)..
HOW DEEP DO YOU WANT TO GO?!?!
Second, "-I have a DeviantArt account I barely use where I am being guilt-tripped by an annoyed fan who used to care about me." I hope you're not referring to me Brinton. Keep in mind, every journal I've seen from you went down the drain and got so depressing, I can understand why people don't bother to care about you anymore. You used to be good 10 years back, and now look at you, miserable, traumatized, and depressed to the point where you're poor as fuck...I should be lucky I have parents that have enough wealth and the amount of work time in order to keep our house afloat (especially my dad of course whom my parents are not into their very late 50s and into their very early 60s). So at some point, in the future, even I have to think about moving out and such so, I'll have to wait and see what happens in the future.
Either way, just take it easy out there and don't stress yourself out. Take care, happy new year, and hopefully, Hopefully, 2025 will be a better year for you than last year (for me my best years are still 2003 and 2010 - 2012, pretty much after that it's not really something I care too much about every year. But 2025, hopefully it'll be a big change for me to start somewhere and not nowhere or staying where I am now, considering I've been in isolation for nearly 10 years since May 2015 so, it'll be about time I start to come out of the dark and into the light. But I have to work on my sleep first before getting there and such).
I've got three new years resolutions I have to tackle (won't be easy considering soda can be a nasty temptations. But we'll have to wait and see how it turns out and such).