Writing this a bit later than I originally planned, but still, I find it important to write a journal like this once a year as a way to step back and look at myself as well as some of the happenings around me over the past twelve months. As more time passes I appreciate having these little snapshots of myself on this account I can look back on, like a diary with a weirdly strong focus on one specific fruity fictional goat

Overall I'm glad to say things are on the up swing and I'm happy how this year turned out for myself, but it feels ingenuine to gloss over the negatives like I'm prone to around most people. If I had to choose a theme for myself right now I'd say it's self-improvement since I spent a lot of time and energy fixing mistakes and helping myself for the better :) At the start of the year I was beginning to realize I screwed up last year by accidentally losing some weight from overworking myself when I was already rail-thin and didn't have much body fat to spare; I noticed my stomach was down to pretty much just skin and muscle, I felt cold, and it was uncomfortable to sit down for long periods of time. I felt tired all the time even when I was supposedly sleeping well throughout January and into February, and made it one of my goals to fix that and gain some weight back over the next several months. Soon afterwards, I also finally got to my second appointment at my local gender clinic and finally got the ok to start hrt 🥳

So yeah, rocky start to say the least but after that the next several months felt incredibly affirming and I made sure to spend a lot of time visiting old friends, saw my first total solar eclipse, and got to see more of the country outside my little North East bubble. August-ish I redesigned my ref sheet again to help keep up with my personal changes, made Nixie a bit more femme, and gave their figure a little bit of chub as a way to affirm myself now I'm comfortably back in a healthy weight range (sorry for any twink Nixie fans in the audience, didn't mean to catch you in the crossfire). I think this has to be the happiest I've been with my goat and myself, and I feel extremely lucky for all the wonderfully talented artists I was able to able to bother for artwork or otherwise support this year 💖

Happy New Year and thanks to everyone who spent their personal time to say nice things on my page, I'm gonna try to be better about actually replying to everyone's comments again. I really do feel flattered whenever someone feels strongly enough about something I post here to comment or occasionally send me very sweet notes. Really, thank you~