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🪴🌿 The Big Deer 2024 Review 🌿🪴
11 months ago
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Hello-ha
To whoever may be reading this,
I wanted to do another closing yearly review thing. Something I haven't done since 2021, which was a awful year through and through. I kinda touched on my life in a few other past journals over the years, but I haven't done a yearly review in ages. Warning, things are gonna get sappy and sad but I promise it's positive.
Grandma
The year didn't open out all that well. My grandma, on my mum's side, passed away in February. Even though she was far away and not a huge part of my life in recent years it was still a sad loss, another place and person in my life who I will never see again. But I'll always have the memories and be glad that I knew her for as long as I live. My good friend
etsu_cuprumfox also painted a lovely artistic rendition of her cottage home. So, besides the memories, I will always have something physical to remember her and her place in the world by. Along with a few other knick-knacks of course.
Norway
But as a tonal opposite, come March, I organised and travelled to Norway by myself. Something I would do another two times throughout the year. The first time, I travelled to Trondheim, the old medieval capital of Norway. With their beautiful old cathedral and fort, rows of beautiful old colourful homes. It certainly was cold but I had great company, in the form of
jegermaistro to keep me warm and show me around. I'm really glad I had them for this trip. They were a great help in making me feel comfortable and recommending nice places for me to see. Something they would continue on my second trip in June, taking me hiking in the hills around Trondheim and along the coasts of the fjord.
Also on this trip, I also met someone else, Reple, who was great company and someone who I really enjoyed spending time with. I met them in Oslo and they were just so easy and talkative. They also recommended a great food place which is all it takes to get into my good books, for those wondering ;). They'd also recommended a new furry convention in Norway. More in this in the Furnavia section.
Relationship stuff
Coming back down to sad town, this year was the end of my first ever proper relationship. Me and
malokai~ unfortunately broke up. I'm so glad I got to be with them for as long as I did. The good times we shared still make me smile today, and probably will for years to come. They made me feel so loved, secure and happy, but by the turn of this year I couldn't help but notice the lack of those feelings anymore. There's no drama and things ended on good terms so there's no need to worry. I also won't get too much into details to avoid creating drama. However this was definitely a landmark event in the year. While it had to happen for the good of both of us, it left me feeling incredibly heartbroken and lonely. At times this year, I've been the saddest I've been in a while and considered taking my own life on several occasions. But as mentioned, it had to happen and if course I'm still here so things look to be okay for now. Plus, we can now both move forward and find what we really need and want from our lives.
Furnavia and furry stuff
As hinted at earlier, this year would see my first furry convention ever. The second year of Furnavia, a convention held in Kristiansand, Norway. It was quite a small con, only around 300 attendees, however this made the perfect cozy first con experience. It was expertly organised and staffed by some awesome people. While there, I got to meet and see loads of cool people, including one of my favourite artists
xnirox who I could barely contain my nerves and excitement for. Talk about embarrassing.
It got me feeling really proud of this fandom and really made me want to start embrace the IRL sides to it. I've been looking into getting a Fursuit and been regularly attending LFM and will be attending NFC next year. Along with some other cons too. This feels really great as I'd grown bored of a lot of furry stuff last year and was considering dropping it all. But exploring the IRL side has given me a new passion and interest for all things furry, so buckle up. There's more furry stuff coming your way.
Conclusion
That's really the big stuff from this year. Besides that I've mostly be working and bouncing between suicidal depression and bouncing positivity. That is to say, I've been tremendously sad this year, but I've also had a lot of great experiences and can sense really great change in myself and coming to my life in 2025 (knock on wood). Hopefully I'll be mentioning it all in my next yearly review and it will be positive.
For now though I'd like to say thank you for reading, if you did. I'm not really expecting people to read or care. I just wanted to write this and get some thoughts out of my head and onto something.
Thank you everyone, all my friends and all the people who watch me to see all the lewd scenarios my deer can be inserted into. I wish you all a happy new year. May your next one be even better.
I wanted to do another closing yearly review thing. Something I haven't done since 2021, which was a awful year through and through. I kinda touched on my life in a few other past journals over the years, but I haven't done a yearly review in ages. Warning, things are gonna get sappy and sad but I promise it's positive.
Grandma
The year didn't open out all that well. My grandma, on my mum's side, passed away in February. Even though she was far away and not a huge part of my life in recent years it was still a sad loss, another place and person in my life who I will never see again. But I'll always have the memories and be glad that I knew her for as long as I live. My good friend
etsu_cuprumfox also painted a lovely artistic rendition of her cottage home. So, besides the memories, I will always have something physical to remember her and her place in the world by. Along with a few other knick-knacks of course. Norway
But as a tonal opposite, come March, I organised and travelled to Norway by myself. Something I would do another two times throughout the year. The first time, I travelled to Trondheim, the old medieval capital of Norway. With their beautiful old cathedral and fort, rows of beautiful old colourful homes. It certainly was cold but I had great company, in the form of
jegermaistro to keep me warm and show me around. I'm really glad I had them for this trip. They were a great help in making me feel comfortable and recommending nice places for me to see. Something they would continue on my second trip in June, taking me hiking in the hills around Trondheim and along the coasts of the fjord. Also on this trip, I also met someone else, Reple, who was great company and someone who I really enjoyed spending time with. I met them in Oslo and they were just so easy and talkative. They also recommended a great food place which is all it takes to get into my good books, for those wondering ;). They'd also recommended a new furry convention in Norway. More in this in the Furnavia section.
Relationship stuff
Coming back down to sad town, this year was the end of my first ever proper relationship. Me and
malokai~ unfortunately broke up. I'm so glad I got to be with them for as long as I did. The good times we shared still make me smile today, and probably will for years to come. They made me feel so loved, secure and happy, but by the turn of this year I couldn't help but notice the lack of those feelings anymore. There's no drama and things ended on good terms so there's no need to worry. I also won't get too much into details to avoid creating drama. However this was definitely a landmark event in the year. While it had to happen for the good of both of us, it left me feeling incredibly heartbroken and lonely. At times this year, I've been the saddest I've been in a while and considered taking my own life on several occasions. But as mentioned, it had to happen and if course I'm still here so things look to be okay for now. Plus, we can now both move forward and find what we really need and want from our lives. Furnavia and furry stuff
As hinted at earlier, this year would see my first furry convention ever. The second year of Furnavia, a convention held in Kristiansand, Norway. It was quite a small con, only around 300 attendees, however this made the perfect cozy first con experience. It was expertly organised and staffed by some awesome people. While there, I got to meet and see loads of cool people, including one of my favourite artists
xnirox who I could barely contain my nerves and excitement for. Talk about embarrassing. It got me feeling really proud of this fandom and really made me want to start embrace the IRL sides to it. I've been looking into getting a Fursuit and been regularly attending LFM and will be attending NFC next year. Along with some other cons too. This feels really great as I'd grown bored of a lot of furry stuff last year and was considering dropping it all. But exploring the IRL side has given me a new passion and interest for all things furry, so buckle up. There's more furry stuff coming your way.
Conclusion
That's really the big stuff from this year. Besides that I've mostly be working and bouncing between suicidal depression and bouncing positivity. That is to say, I've been tremendously sad this year, but I've also had a lot of great experiences and can sense really great change in myself and coming to my life in 2025 (knock on wood). Hopefully I'll be mentioning it all in my next yearly review and it will be positive.
For now though I'd like to say thank you for reading, if you did. I'm not really expecting people to read or care. I just wanted to write this and get some thoughts out of my head and onto something.
Thank you everyone, all my friends and all the people who watch me to see all the lewd scenarios my deer can be inserted into. I wish you all a happy new year. May your next one be even better.
(You have a handsome sona)