Hi. If you're reading. Thank you for all the support. I'm in tears as I'm writing this, but unfortunately my mom didn't make it. She died of alcohol induced cirrhosis of the liver, which caused her varicose veins in her esophagus to bleed profusely into her stomach. At first she was fine and controlled it for 2 days, but the veins teared again at 1 AM CST and the doctors could not stop the bleeding. I only know this based off Plague Inc., but an organ hemmorhage is one of the most lethal things to give your plague. Her jaundiced skin sent shivers down my spine... I'm... I'm devastated. She wanted me to graduate college and now she won't get to see me graduate... I loved her so much despite her problem, but even through thr efforts of my family to get her to stop, she would not stop drinking. I hate myself that we didn't do anything more drastic to stop her alcohol addiction. We did everything we could but she was so stubborn to stop. I'm... I'm very hurt. I don't take these types of things well, and I know that due to the death of my two cats in 2018 and 2022, and now that I'm experiencing it with someone closer than a pet. My literal bearer of life is gone before I'm even

I don't know what to do... She's gone and I'm not even out of college... or my 20s...i was hoping I didn't need to do this until I was in my 40s...

I'm broken... I'm torn... I don't know how to continue forward.... Everything has crumbled over me.... I'm a shell of myself...