Tonight has to be the worst and lowest night of my life. Not because anything is wrong, but these antidepressants I'm on just sent me into a spiral and a panic attack out of nowhere. So many negative and dark thoughts about every fear I have. How I'm not good enough for anything or anyone. That I'm better off gone....... all I did was lay down and this hit me. Even self deletion ran through my head, deleting every social media thing I have. Worried reaching out was begging for attention making me a terrible person..... just for laying down.


I'm trying to get better and be careful on these damn things.