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Life Update - 1/24/2025
9 months ago
When it comes to friends, only miss the ones that truly care about you a lot more than others, not those who don’t, even if they cared about you only in the beginning of that relationship.
I just finally made a very tough decision (years in the making), but I feel like letting go of this one “friend” who I was around IRL because we grew apart from when we were student coworkers in a special ed work program for two years (I was in 10th & 11th grade). I noticed how far apart we grew over the years even when I spent time with my Dad and how we have more differences than in common. I have healed from past friendships before and some were easier than others, especially when people change and move on. My Dad is here to stay and I will serve him like I serve my Mom. This “friend” of mine even made a bad first impression on me before we grew into friends for a while, but I should’ve done things differently to save myself from bullying and humiliation that we went through.
Why waste my energy on this individual who I only saw for two years (only 2 or 3 days of the week) when I can be with my Dad who has been around since when I was born. Family and also close friends are the ones I can be with and I can be true honest self around them even if we like completely different things. Also, I did well without the person, before and after this friendship like I did with every other ex-friend/fake friend of mine out there.
From the last journal where I mentioned my Dad, I mentioned this "friend" there. I do not like Dragon Ball Z and one of the many reason why I do not like that show because it reminds me of this "fake ass friend" and I can't let him rent space in my head anymore.
I just finally made a very tough decision (years in the making), but I feel like letting go of this one “friend” who I was around IRL because we grew apart from when we were student coworkers in a special ed work program for two years (I was in 10th & 11th grade). I noticed how far apart we grew over the years even when I spent time with my Dad and how we have more differences than in common. I have healed from past friendships before and some were easier than others, especially when people change and move on. My Dad is here to stay and I will serve him like I serve my Mom. This “friend” of mine even made a bad first impression on me before we grew into friends for a while, but I should’ve done things differently to save myself from bullying and humiliation that we went through.
Why waste my energy on this individual who I only saw for two years (only 2 or 3 days of the week) when I can be with my Dad who has been around since when I was born. Family and also close friends are the ones I can be with and I can be true honest self around them even if we like completely different things. Also, I did well without the person, before and after this friendship like I did with every other ex-friend/fake friend of mine out there.
From the last journal where I mentioned my Dad, I mentioned this "friend" there. I do not like Dragon Ball Z and one of the many reason why I do not like that show because it reminds me of this "fake ass friend" and I can't let him rent space in my head anymore.
Either way, I would rather people come to me to be friends or hang out/contact me rather than me coming to them.
I had a friend that I met a couple years, who back then was a really nice girl, and we were good friends. But even with all that, eventually she really changed for the worse. She made me feel unwanted, and cared more about her other friends to the point where she’d defend them for bullying me. It got to a point where the only times it felt like she truly wanted to talk was when she was sad and knew I’d help her. Yet through all of this, I still remained friends with her and assumed good faith, because I just didn’t want to let go of her, and kept ignoring the issue, covering them up with the few reasons why I still wanted to remain friends.
Then after talking with some other people about it, I finally made the decision to cut her out, and it wasn’t easy and I was in a bad state even after cutting her out. But I was still able to bounce back, I grew, and cut out some other people who were causing me pain, and now after a while, I feel truly happy here, drawing my shit, talking with those who truly care, and living my best life.
I get it, change is hard, it’s not fun. I fear for the future a lot, it’s scary. But you gotta be hopeful. Think about it this way, if you cut out someone who’s hurting you, it’ll be painful, but that’ll make way for new friends who care, who understand you, and who will be there for you.
It’ll be ok, buddy :)
I just wanted to share a similar story to give you some words of encouragement :]
Now I just to try to erase his face and name from my mind.
It’s not about trying to erase a chapter of your life, it’s about acknowledging that it happened and moving on, using what you’ve learned for the future. She might’ve been an asshole to me but she was a major part in kickstarting my art skills and passion for drawing (she also got me back into the furry fandom), and after cutting ties, it helped me realized just how many bad relationships I had.
It’s never about denying something happened, it’s about emerging a stronger man than before and moving on.