Well, this month was fairly bad. From the several breakdowns I've fought from having, the birthday that my family pretty much forgot about and the gifts I bought myself being pretty much taken by my siblings. This new year has not gone great. And I do love and thank to those that has helped keep me sane so far, but it just feels like it gets harder with each passing day, even now, I'm unsure if this is just a vent or how I genuinely feel,, but these thoughts has progressively gotten worse the Longer I kept them in my head. I feel like all that I have worked hard for and eatned is just falling apart and being taken away, saving money isn't possible having to give it all to my family once again for food and laundry. All the plans I've had for buying myself art for once once again gone down the drain as well as even getting myself a new console, pc or even vr headset... Knowing how things may go, I do really doubt on being able to achieve my goals, dreams and hopes of all the things that I so desperately wanted in life and just have to settle with being left behind in this advancing world.