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Treatment Journal #2
10 months ago
General
So, it has been over 2 full months since I began receiving IV Ketamine infusions for my treatment-resistant depression. A bunch of things have happened in my life that I could never have fathomed the past 7 years.
I continue to be in full remission of my depression going on the 9th week now. Work has also been very fulfilling for me, despite the intricacies of my sudden return causing me headaches, even though my union chapter president tells me I have nothing to fear in that regard. This situation would have destroyed me in the past. Among other things, it may have been the tipping point for me, again, and that makes me ashamed to admit that.
Plenty of things have changed when it comes to my psyche too. I dare say that my personality has even been changing. I continue to try understanding my emotions, from sadness, anger, fear, love, likeness, dread... the list goes on, since the Ketamine has let me experience them without the ideations that plagued me my life. I'm enjoying the process thus far.
My perception of time and the formulation of memories continues to be difficult, with past events feeling weeks older than they actually are, or how I am able to think about things so quickly that it feels I've been thinking about them for days when it's only been hours. It is getting better though as time goes on, so it is something that I can consider a neutral side effect.
On a happier note, I have formed at least 3 new core memories lmao. And made new friends along the way.
I continue to be in full remission of my depression going on the 9th week now. Work has also been very fulfilling for me, despite the intricacies of my sudden return causing me headaches, even though my union chapter president tells me I have nothing to fear in that regard. This situation would have destroyed me in the past. Among other things, it may have been the tipping point for me, again, and that makes me ashamed to admit that.
Plenty of things have changed when it comes to my psyche too. I dare say that my personality has even been changing. I continue to try understanding my emotions, from sadness, anger, fear, love, likeness, dread... the list goes on, since the Ketamine has let me experience them without the ideations that plagued me my life. I'm enjoying the process thus far.
My perception of time and the formulation of memories continues to be difficult, with past events feeling weeks older than they actually are, or how I am able to think about things so quickly that it feels I've been thinking about them for days when it's only been hours. It is getting better though as time goes on, so it is something that I can consider a neutral side effect.
On a happier note, I have formed at least 3 new core memories lmao. And made new friends along the way.
