Well it's no secret it's my birthday today.

For starters I wanted to make s journal regarding this but I decided to wait when I was more mentally stable and that's usually around this time if year.

About a month or so ago I wanted to take my own life It feels so weird talking about it like This only a handful of people I trust knew about this.


The past few months haven't been easy for me I struggle a lot with many demons and feel like a burden to people by talking about This with them. But I know now that's not for me to decide it would have been selfish to go through with it.

Life isn't easy but it can get better and it will I'm blessed to have met such amazing people in my life especially on this site sure it has its problems but so far I have been touched deeply knowing kind people still exists in this cruel world




This people are a very important to me they know my struggles and what I'm going through and they have been so kind and supporting I'm very glad I met them in my life truly.


And I love to shout out another set of individuals that are not only wonderful artist but amazing human beings as well  DORI-DU  iamzavix not only have the made such amazing artworks of my characters but they are very kind individuals both of them I love and will continue to support them and you should too they are fantastic artists and even more wonderful people thank you both.


I know not what the future holds for me but I hope and have faith it will get better people have shown me that I'm probably not the best person to talk about this but if your ever feeling don't don't hesitate to talk to me I'm always open to meeting new people.


Until next time hoping take care.