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7 months ago
Hey everyone! I hope you are doing well. Hope you don't mind a ramble from a massive bear.
TLDR: I'm doing OK, birthday next month, job hunt sucks, trying to work on myself, might post more rambling journals. Love you all <3
I have been feeling pretty empty over the last month. There are days where I'm definitely happy, and days where I'm not. Sometimes it does feel like there are more sad days. The last week or so has been pretty good. Got together with some friends to play a bunch of magic the gathering. The Eagles won the super bowl which was great to see. (I'm from Philadelphia and grew up really liking the team/sport) And have my birthday coming up next month, which is the 12th.
But I also see all the things happening around me that are bad, and it just brings my mental health down. I don't know if I can claw my way out of it quickly with the way things are going. This caused me to retract a bit and just stop talking to a lot of people. And for that I'm sorry. I'm trying to get better with keeping up socially, but being social is the first thing that normally falls to the wayside when I'm feeling down. I'm sorry I'm not always around or responsive to messages. I both want to get out of my comfort zone and talk to everyone, and want to just slink away and be alone. I'm definitely trying a few different things to drown out the noise and focus on myself. It will probably be a long road, but I'm optimistic about it.
I'm still working, but still also only 2 days a week. I really need to find a new job, but have had very little luck in finding something that isn't a call center or a sales job. All I want to do is answer emails for people, or assist other people with their own work, offering advice or proofreading/work checking. Something like auditing, but with less finance, more of work process or something along those lines. Can't find anything like it.
I have a bunch of art I also still have to post. Hopefully I'll get around to it soon. I need to write another story for one of the pieces. But I probably won't be getting much more art this year unless I can find more steady work. Can't survive on just two days a week.
I guess overall I'm OK. I'm not good, but I'm not bad. I'm just trying to take things one day at a time. Just living with the ups and downs of life at the moment, but also trying to not let things pass me by. I guess typing all of this out helps in a way. I should try and do this more often. Just typing it all out can provide a bit of relief. Would any of you mind if I tried to just type my thoughts out more? Kind of like a semi-public digital journal? Or would that get way too annoying?
Anyway, if you read all of this, thank you <3 It really means a lot to me.
Happy Valentine's day. I love you all so very much. Some big, strong, crushing bear hugs to you all~
TLDR: I'm doing OK, birthday next month, job hunt sucks, trying to work on myself, might post more rambling journals. Love you all <3
I have been feeling pretty empty over the last month. There are days where I'm definitely happy, and days where I'm not. Sometimes it does feel like there are more sad days. The last week or so has been pretty good. Got together with some friends to play a bunch of magic the gathering. The Eagles won the super bowl which was great to see. (I'm from Philadelphia and grew up really liking the team/sport) And have my birthday coming up next month, which is the 12th.
But I also see all the things happening around me that are bad, and it just brings my mental health down. I don't know if I can claw my way out of it quickly with the way things are going. This caused me to retract a bit and just stop talking to a lot of people. And for that I'm sorry. I'm trying to get better with keeping up socially, but being social is the first thing that normally falls to the wayside when I'm feeling down. I'm sorry I'm not always around or responsive to messages. I both want to get out of my comfort zone and talk to everyone, and want to just slink away and be alone. I'm definitely trying a few different things to drown out the noise and focus on myself. It will probably be a long road, but I'm optimistic about it.
I'm still working, but still also only 2 days a week. I really need to find a new job, but have had very little luck in finding something that isn't a call center or a sales job. All I want to do is answer emails for people, or assist other people with their own work, offering advice or proofreading/work checking. Something like auditing, but with less finance, more of work process or something along those lines. Can't find anything like it.
I have a bunch of art I also still have to post. Hopefully I'll get around to it soon. I need to write another story for one of the pieces. But I probably won't be getting much more art this year unless I can find more steady work. Can't survive on just two days a week.
I guess overall I'm OK. I'm not good, but I'm not bad. I'm just trying to take things one day at a time. Just living with the ups and downs of life at the moment, but also trying to not let things pass me by. I guess typing all of this out helps in a way. I should try and do this more often. Just typing it all out can provide a bit of relief. Would any of you mind if I tried to just type my thoughts out more? Kind of like a semi-public digital journal? Or would that get way too annoying?
Anyway, if you read all of this, thank you <3 It really means a lot to me.
Happy Valentine's day. I love you all so very much. Some big, strong, crushing bear hugs to you all~
Hoping the best for you ^^