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My greatest fear is happening now
8 months ago
My Journal
I don’t know if this will be my last journal.
My greatest fear is officially taking place, and I have never been more frustrated, violent, stressed, and afraid in my life. I never thought things would truly become this terrible but they have and I am fully convinced this country is on a path of tyranny and collapse but I have no clue whether I’ll be around to see this collapse. It’s painfully clear the new regime wants people like me gone and the Democrats and the representatives who are supposed to be the “opposition” clearly don’t give a shit enough to care or outright benefit from the fascist movement. We are on our own now. It’s over.
It’s a weird vibe watching everything around me getting censored or collapsing and wondering whether I’ll be dead before the year is over for speaking out about it or imprisoned for being queer while trying to make weird fetish art for randos on the internet. Pretending to be happy while fearing that at any moment some insane bootlicker will screw my life over and hurt me or my family. Constantly feeling like I’m being watched this whole fucking year already doesn’t help. There’s been strange activity and I am starting to lose it.
Just to set the record right in case they try to bring back the draft: I refuse to be in the service. I refuse to brutalize nations that trump wants to take over like Canada and Greenland and Panama, they will never be your 51st states Donald. I refuse to hurt innocent lives. If this makes me an enemy then so be it. I already am undesirable in their eyes anyway.
I don’t know if websites like this will stay around. If they do ban all queer, nsfw, or anything against their P25 agenda then I dunno how long I can stay around. All I know is that the next 20-80 years are going to be hell and my life may as well be over. I will keep trying to hold on but I can’t guarantee a thing.
I don’t know what to do. Everyone keeps telling me to hold on or to ignore everything going on but it’s becoming increasingly impossible because all of this affects all of us. I deeply wish I could ignore it but I can’t. I just want to be happy again…
My greatest fear is officially taking place, and I have never been more frustrated, violent, stressed, and afraid in my life. I never thought things would truly become this terrible but they have and I am fully convinced this country is on a path of tyranny and collapse but I have no clue whether I’ll be around to see this collapse. It’s painfully clear the new regime wants people like me gone and the Democrats and the representatives who are supposed to be the “opposition” clearly don’t give a shit enough to care or outright benefit from the fascist movement. We are on our own now. It’s over.
It’s a weird vibe watching everything around me getting censored or collapsing and wondering whether I’ll be dead before the year is over for speaking out about it or imprisoned for being queer while trying to make weird fetish art for randos on the internet. Pretending to be happy while fearing that at any moment some insane bootlicker will screw my life over and hurt me or my family. Constantly feeling like I’m being watched this whole fucking year already doesn’t help. There’s been strange activity and I am starting to lose it.
Just to set the record right in case they try to bring back the draft: I refuse to be in the service. I refuse to brutalize nations that trump wants to take over like Canada and Greenland and Panama, they will never be your 51st states Donald. I refuse to hurt innocent lives. If this makes me an enemy then so be it. I already am undesirable in their eyes anyway.
I don’t know if websites like this will stay around. If they do ban all queer, nsfw, or anything against their P25 agenda then I dunno how long I can stay around. All I know is that the next 20-80 years are going to be hell and my life may as well be over. I will keep trying to hold on but I can’t guarantee a thing.
I don’t know what to do. Everyone keeps telling me to hold on or to ignore everything going on but it’s becoming increasingly impossible because all of this affects all of us. I deeply wish I could ignore it but I can’t. I just want to be happy again…
