I guess I should jot down a bit as I have a free moment to myself.
After attending therapy for several weeks now, as well as stepping away from Facebook for good, and (maybe a bit ironically) using Bluesky as a personal vent diary, I've been in a calmer state of mind.
been trying to get better sleep, as well as relying on aromatherapy as my weird new fixation/hobby, recording travel logs with an action camera I bought, and playing Limbus Company for the first time...

Yeah, life's been feeling okay.
Even though I still struggle a lot with sudden mood swings and a lot of negativity, self-loath, self-depreciation, it's all sort of went down to a moderately "manageable" level.
I still feel a lot of resentment and wrath towards the people that wronged me. But in realizing that they were as flawed people as I am, it eased that feeling of anger and envy that somehow my life was now beneath theirs.

I feel like it's still going to take a long time, as I still continue to mourn and grieve for the amount of time and sacrifices I've invested into that group, at least for now, I feel okay with being alive.
That's all for now.
Hope your day is going well, and hope you're doing alright for yourself.