Sadly I dont really have that in life. Im just here.

I'm really sorry to hear that… I truly believe that everyone has something that can bring them joy or peace - it just might take time to find it. You matter, and your presence is important! *hug*

I believe if I found love it would certainly help. But given I don't exactly matter and am outcasted I don't think I'll find that in life.

I hear you, and I’m really sorry you feel that way. But please know that you do matter. Even if it doesn’t feel like it right now, your presence makes a difference. Love whether romantic or in friendships has a way of finding us when we least expect it. You’re not as alone as you think, and I truly believe that there are people out there who will see you for the amazing person you are.. I've lived in a state of outcast since school.. I'm only now getting back on my feet! I understand how hard it is. I hope you believe in a better future, it will definitely happen, don't give up!