A quick edit to those who have been watching me closely on discord and keeping me company, I do wanna say that I appreciate you immensely. Cheese my dude, your amazing and pover your an angel thank you .

It is becoming increasingly difficult, not being able to speak to somebody that you love and care about. You’re best friend….they linger like a shadow that replaces yours because they’re all you think about. Makes it worse when they give up on you…. It makes the nights harder to sleep because you feel that you are wrong or that you’ve done something wrong even though you try to appease them even though you try to change certain things…..

The only thing you’re left with is your thoughts and silence and the brutal truth that they’re perfectly fine without you. Abandoning you….. I know I’m not perfect I am very much so flawed. I just want this pain to go away… I just want to be in peace so I don’t have to worry about the men, love, friends, or anything. And you can try and distract yourself but when it’s time to sleep, that’s when the demons scream the loudest …….Anyway that’s my mental check…..

Make sure if you have people suffering from depression or the feeling of abandonment, let them know you love them and hold them tightly cause maybe love is the only thing that they need…..