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Sorry for my inactivity.
9 months ago
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I had planned on uploading more often. Heck, I'd planned on drawing a little more often. But a couple of things have been happening.
Lack of motivation
Drawing, for some reason, has been a mental nightmare for me. I haven't been able to finish anything right now, which I suppose is a relief that I haven't had any commissions, means there's nobody waiting for something that may end up never coming to fruition if things continue like that. That isn't to say I'm outright stopping though! I'm doing my best to draw more art, including some more things with Circuit, and even more emotes of my Tatsugiri, Teal, which I may have to see about uploading here just so people have an idea of "who the heck is Teal?"
More activity from older siblings
I have full trust in my younger sister and my brother in law, but when it comes to my other two siblings- my older brothers- I want to hide the fact I'm using a furry channel to upload stuff like vore or whatever, because I never want them to know I'm into vore. One of them IS a furry, but I would rather not associate him with anyone I talk to on the regular, while the other brother I imagine would never stop making jokes about it to the point I'd just lose interest in it altogether.
A death in the family
This is the most recent one. On March 10th, just two days ago, I lost my father incredibly suddenly. I'm still struggling a little with my emotions, because I miss him a lot. He was a great man. We have no idea what killed him, we're still waiting for a report from a coroner, as my town doesn't have one we had to talk to the police about the details to be sent to a coroner to assess what happened. Though the rest of my family thought he was just sleeping, I knew that he was suffering in his final hours, and the doctors tried for a good half hour to resuscitate him when his heart stopped, but the tragic fact is that he wasn't able to be revived. Just thinking about the noises he made is making me feel like I could have done something to save him, but I shouldn't be blaming myself when the reason definitely has to do with an ongoing issue with his health. I already struggled to believe he was gone until we were allowed to see him for one last time, and... well, he looked like a different person entirely. Just seeing him in that state was so painful. I miss him so much man.
But... yeah. I plan to try and work some more on drawing, and in the meantime I may see about adding some artwork of my Tatsugiri to flesh out my character roster a little. I do hope to try and get more art of them, but the fact is with my financial situation, the only ways that will happen is through either being fortunate enough to get gift art, or (the most likely option because I'm TERRIFIED to ask others for art) trying to draw them myself.
Until next time though, do take care. I'm doing my best to. o/
Lack of motivation
Drawing, for some reason, has been a mental nightmare for me. I haven't been able to finish anything right now, which I suppose is a relief that I haven't had any commissions, means there's nobody waiting for something that may end up never coming to fruition if things continue like that. That isn't to say I'm outright stopping though! I'm doing my best to draw more art, including some more things with Circuit, and even more emotes of my Tatsugiri, Teal, which I may have to see about uploading here just so people have an idea of "who the heck is Teal?"
More activity from older siblings
I have full trust in my younger sister and my brother in law, but when it comes to my other two siblings- my older brothers- I want to hide the fact I'm using a furry channel to upload stuff like vore or whatever, because I never want them to know I'm into vore. One of them IS a furry, but I would rather not associate him with anyone I talk to on the regular, while the other brother I imagine would never stop making jokes about it to the point I'd just lose interest in it altogether.
A death in the family
This is the most recent one. On March 10th, just two days ago, I lost my father incredibly suddenly. I'm still struggling a little with my emotions, because I miss him a lot. He was a great man. We have no idea what killed him, we're still waiting for a report from a coroner, as my town doesn't have one we had to talk to the police about the details to be sent to a coroner to assess what happened. Though the rest of my family thought he was just sleeping, I knew that he was suffering in his final hours, and the doctors tried for a good half hour to resuscitate him when his heart stopped, but the tragic fact is that he wasn't able to be revived. Just thinking about the noises he made is making me feel like I could have done something to save him, but I shouldn't be blaming myself when the reason definitely has to do with an ongoing issue with his health. I already struggled to believe he was gone until we were allowed to see him for one last time, and... well, he looked like a different person entirely. Just seeing him in that state was so painful. I miss him so much man.
But... yeah. I plan to try and work some more on drawing, and in the meantime I may see about adding some artwork of my Tatsugiri to flesh out my character roster a little. I do hope to try and get more art of them, but the fact is with my financial situation, the only ways that will happen is through either being fortunate enough to get gift art, or (the most likely option because I'm TERRIFIED to ask others for art) trying to draw them myself.
Until next time though, do take care. I'm doing my best to. o/
Losses like that are always a tough thing to grapple with. Both mentally, and emotionally.
Doing our best, in these circumstances, is an admirable and necessary task. One step, one mile, one day at a time. Sounds like you’ll be carrying his memory with you proudly, which says a lot for the kind of man he was.
The first few miles after, are always the toughest.
You’ve got friends to help, if you feel like you’re getting stuck though. Plenty of support at the ready.
Good luck, Godspeed.
Safe travels.
That being said, though, thank you for your condolences and well-wishes. I heavily appreciate it, everyone's support has been one of the biggest factors keeping me going.