Been a..developing last few months after being ghosted by someone who said they were interested but never wanted to make the effort towards engaging what getting closer would entail. Been giving attention to those who earn it, those who I want to give to. Learning to appreciate myself and know I'm worth more than the way some people make me feel. So it's only..idunno, warranted? When I see those who have also ghosted me after breaking friendships and saying they want to try again, are just drowning themselves in art with others to fill the void that they now have being single. And mind you, this is another person entirely too. But still kinda felt scorned over what happened and suddenly they were 'occupied' we'll say but passing by their pages seeing that's changed (can only imagine why /s).

But yeah. Just. I mean better than wallowing in hurt and questioning the past while they feel no guilt (so why should I?). Rather feel like karma is giving its due and that I am better off. I am bathing my affections over another instead, who needs it and wants it. I enjoyed MCFC this past weekend and in a couple days I get to see Caravan Palace in concert finally so I'm excited. Got a new 3D printer, largest(?) size there kinda is or next to and I'm eager to figure out how and what to do with it. I've also put more funds into my New Orleans trip coming this October again and can't wait to eat my favorite and only brisket at the Vampire Cafe down there.

Overall trying to socialize more after tending to a broken heart, after waiting for another scar from these kinds of people to heal over before I get myself out and about out there. And for as kind and hopeful I am, as always trying to be nice and think kindly...sometimes you earn the right to look down your nose at some of these people and feel a little glee when they're finding out what its like, even if they'll never admit or see it as that. Better than causing a dramatic stir, commenting on their things and harassing them. Just...enjoy the show >:3


Anyway, enough sadistic melodies. Just...wanted to speak up. Express and update. I'm excited for things to come.


Break down, only alone I will cry out loud
You'll never see what's hiding out
Hiding out deep down
Yeah, yeah
I know, I've heard that to let your feelings show
Is the only way to make friendships grow
But I'm too afraid now
Yeah, yeah

I put my armor on, show you how strong I am
I put my armor on, I'll show you that I am

I'm unstoppable
I'm a Porsche with no brakes
I'm invincible
Yeah, I win every single game
I'm so powerful
I don't need batteries to play
I'm so confident
Yeah, I'm unstoppable today