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Hello, let's chat a bit, yeah?
5 months ago
Gonna cook something up real quick!
Been a bit since I wrote one of these and just wanted to kind of touch base as it's 3am I just got home from work and have a bit on my mind. Induldlge me for a bit please and apologise in advance for any spelling errors. Eyes are struggling to keep up right now.
So, let's start with the art side of things yeah? It's been a bit since the last upload, and honestly it's been a bit since I've last drawn something. The most recent file is a newer Wired Brain thing to 'Emergence' by Sleep Token, and that was a month ago. But lately work has burnt me out so badly that I'm struggling to even sketch.
Speaking of work, I became night shift lead at work, which is a similar position to where I was a year ago, just a bit less pay than it was. As much as I enjoy the job, the stress has been killing me (almost to the literal sense at times) as the staffing I have in this new area is less than minimal to what needs to get done. Shifts for me that are supposed to end at 1230am don't actually end until 3am for me to make sure everything is done properly and morning crew doesn't have any issues to start their day.
Another thing I want to talk about is the ending of a very very very long "friendship". In October of last year, I made the hard, but needed, decision to cut ties with someone I had called my best friend and non-blood-brother after 20+ years of knowing him. He had major anger issues that I brushed aside on a constant, even when he verbally abused the shit out of me in the 5 years of living with him. After he moved out of state I felt a bit more freed, like a weight had been lifted a bit, but still being in contact meant the abuse still happened. In October however, his anger reached a boiling point with the D&D group we were in while I wasn't in game. After talking to them about it, I had made the decision to cut him out and block all contact from him. He has since attempted to get to me through my friends and my brother, but they have refused to give him any info on me. I'm glad I have them in my life and in my corner, and I hope they know that I'm in theirs too.
Everything is not all bad though. I started seeing a therapist regularly since July and in December started to open up to the femboy side a bit more and a bit more openly too, as apparent with the creation of Aspen. I even wore a skirt out in public with my friend recently which was a big step.
I'm hoping to get back into art soon, though. I miss it. Hopefully, I'm not too harsh on myself when I do.
Thank you all for reading this far if you have. Hope to see you all again soon with some new doodles.
Much love
- ET713
So, let's start with the art side of things yeah? It's been a bit since the last upload, and honestly it's been a bit since I've last drawn something. The most recent file is a newer Wired Brain thing to 'Emergence' by Sleep Token, and that was a month ago. But lately work has burnt me out so badly that I'm struggling to even sketch.
Speaking of work, I became night shift lead at work, which is a similar position to where I was a year ago, just a bit less pay than it was. As much as I enjoy the job, the stress has been killing me (almost to the literal sense at times) as the staffing I have in this new area is less than minimal to what needs to get done. Shifts for me that are supposed to end at 1230am don't actually end until 3am for me to make sure everything is done properly and morning crew doesn't have any issues to start their day.
Another thing I want to talk about is the ending of a very very very long "friendship". In October of last year, I made the hard, but needed, decision to cut ties with someone I had called my best friend and non-blood-brother after 20+ years of knowing him. He had major anger issues that I brushed aside on a constant, even when he verbally abused the shit out of me in the 5 years of living with him. After he moved out of state I felt a bit more freed, like a weight had been lifted a bit, but still being in contact meant the abuse still happened. In October however, his anger reached a boiling point with the D&D group we were in while I wasn't in game. After talking to them about it, I had made the decision to cut him out and block all contact from him. He has since attempted to get to me through my friends and my brother, but they have refused to give him any info on me. I'm glad I have them in my life and in my corner, and I hope they know that I'm in theirs too.
Everything is not all bad though. I started seeing a therapist regularly since July and in December started to open up to the femboy side a bit more and a bit more openly too, as apparent with the creation of Aspen. I even wore a skirt out in public with my friend recently which was a big step.
I'm hoping to get back into art soon, though. I miss it. Hopefully, I'm not too harsh on myself when I do.
Thank you all for reading this far if you have. Hope to see you all again soon with some new doodles.
Much love
- ET713
