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6 months ago
⬌ - ., ♥️ ⋆✦❂✦ ⊂((・▽・))⊃ ✦❂✦⋆♥️ , . - ⬌ 
Hello my lil’ pumpkins 💖 I’m very sorry for the long absence, but some serious things have happened to me that were beyond my control. So I need your help only if you have, please, the possibility to give it to me… Below you can read all the reasons why I need it.
Long story short…
I am on edge mentally, emotionally and even physically:
My house has been burgled several times in the last three weeks.
I need to protect my home and myself so that it becomes a safe place for me again.
Due to the fear that the next time I was robbed this time they would do something to me that would seriously endanger my physical integrity, I let my father into my house. My father is a highly toxic, sexist, emotionally and psychologically abusive person and physically abusive to my pets (which he has done in front of me). Now I don’t even get to sleep…
Since before my mother's death I was in depression, which was dramatically accentuated by her death two years ago, and every day I am more and more on the edge. Now with all this that has happened and the abusive presence of my father I have intrusive thoughts every day of ending it all.... You know what I mean… I cannot work, I cannot feel safe in my own house… I’m on the edge…
The long story…
Believe it or not, talking about this kind of things costs me a world because in my family I was taught that you should always keep your problems to yourself, but my current situation has led me to break this teaching.
Three weeks ago I started hearing strange noises in the upstairs of my house (my house is an old two-story house). When I went to check (with a knife, because in my country firearms are forbidden), I found nothing.
Until I discovered my wallet in a strange place where I don't usually put it and the cash was missing. It was very late and I tried to justify it by thinking that maybe I had taken it without realizing it, so I went to sleep again.
The next morning I discovered that my TV was unplugged and my Chromecast device was missing. This confirmed my suspicions that my house had been broken into.
It is very likely that many of you are wondering why I did not call the police... But in my country the police are usually associated with mafias. In this case, the cure is worse than the disease, it would have made everything worse because of their corruption. Many experiences have shown me that I cannot trust them.
That night, I stayed up and tried to trap the access to my house but it was completely useless: they got in again. Only to the upper floor, this time, and they took a welding machine that belonged to my mother, some tools and a full gas cylinder. Yes... I don't know how they managed to steal something so heavy because now we know that all this time they were accessing from the top floor of my house, that is, if the second floor has another owner, from the third floor of the building!
I alerted my relatives, they were alarmed and pressured me to allow my father to stay a few days (which is already almost a month because he always finds an excuse to stay, it is practically impossible to kick him out of my house and I can't do it until I secure my house) in my house so that he could watch that the thieves would not enter again... I allowed my father (an abusive and misogynist being) to enter so that the thieves would enter again this time stealing the TV and even more things.
As I have said, I have a complicated relationship with my father as he is an extremely toxic person who only seeks to bring you down emotionally in order to have control and take what is yours. He offends me, disowns me, gaslights me in my own home (home he abandoned over 15 years ago). On top of imposing things I am not willing to do. My father severely mistreated my mother all her life..... And this world lacks two brothers of mine because of his neglect......
I am worse every day mentally and emotionally due to the presence of this person, I cannot leave my house without feeling watched (several neighbors, including my father, could be interested in kicking me out of my house). I have not been able to work because I am afraid that he will do something to my laptop because of his religious fanaticism and I am afraid that he will do something to my animals, which he has already mistreated in front of my own face.
Although I have been dragging this depression since before the death of my mother two years ago, with all this it has gotten much worse and I barely have any strength left, wanting to continually escape from all this.
So my little pumpkins, I would like to please ask for your help to reinforce the security of my home and finally ask this person to please leave.
I know it's a lot to ask, I don't want you to feel obliged to help me... In other circumstances I would have simply tried to do anything with my effort and work, but this situation has pushed me to make this decision having endured as much as possible before carrying it out.
If you can help me through my Kofi or by adopting one of the adoptables I have available I would appreciate it from the bottom of my heart forever.
https://ko-fi.com/milkydreams
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....Adoptable-Open
Thank you for reading all this and for all your great patience with me,
I love you all very much,
MilkyDreams
⬌ - ., ♥️ ⋆✦❂✦ ⊂((・▽・))⊃ ✦❂✦⋆♥️ , . - ⬌ 
19Bogomol
~19bogomol
Sent some your way just now. I'm so sorry that I didn't notice this journal sooner. Please keep holding strong, and hopefully this too will pass. 'hugs'
nickanater1
~nickanater1
Dear god *gives you seriously hug*
