Hello all.

No one will ever read this so I'm venting lol

So I had a big "trans wobble" last month, I've always been interested and uncomfortable in my skin, but never took the plunge.

I briefly started on HRT to start feminising, but I had a panic as one morning I was like "Shit, I don't feel like a girl, nor do I want to be" so I came off.

Also IRL me and my partner want kids, and got knows what estrogen and progesterone can do to sperm count or even what can happen with my dick.

So I guess I'm like genderfluid atm - sometimes I wish I was a girl and sometimes I am happy with my biological sex, its frustrating as even when I'm happy in my skin I know I wont be in a little while (Just like my mental health in general, looool).

So yeah that rules.

On top of that I am so fucking injured like all the time, my work is physically demanding and I am built out of balsa wood and tissue paper and I'm hurt again.

Its really stressful as I'm pretty sure I'm going to get sacked soon (so basically fired, but in a nice way XD) and I don't know what I can do about it, my right arm (I'm right dominant) is damaged where my spine meets the shoulder and into the joint and every time It gets better, work undoes any progress.

Work tries to be accommodating, they previously let me have a few weeks off heavy duty so I could heal with the physio, but the problem came back quite fast and I can only assume I am on thin ice with it.

So yeah, I'm ok, but lifes pretty hard at the moment, being hurt is really fucking my confidence and that sucks and I hate it.

New art soon!