What are we doing here together, huh?

I'm an artist, what does that mean for me? I draw my interests, and I draw kinks, and I have a weakness to draw for attention, because I started out drawing online while in a pit of profound loneliness. What does that mean for me? What should I be doing with that across time? How should I understand what I'm doing with others?

Well what is an artist here? Is that someone who...draws as a hobby? Someone who draws for spiritual need? Someone who draws for indulgence? What if it's all 3? What if they're just someone who only draws maybe once a month? Every day? All these answers change the rules for an artist, and all these rules change what an artist will understand about and want from their audience.

These terribly complicated questions will plague some artists, or go terribly neglected by others, or be answered in simplicity with confidence and determination. I'm one of the artists who neglected these kinds of questions, and over the last three years leading up to therapy I've been churning them in my mind quite thoroughly.

Now get ready for the butter, because you're already bread.

I've learned those questions are kind of distracting and dumb, and that there's a few simpler questions to focus on:
"What do I want?"
"What do I expect of myself?"
"What image and impression am I giving everyone about myself?"
"What is expected of me?"
"Are any of these things in conflict with each other? Resolve conflicts by prioritizing questions in descending order."

Across time I've had to understand that because I draw for indulgence, for spiritual need, and for sillies, that I give off a very confusing image, because I've had difficulty keeping some things where they belong. Wires got crossed repeatedly, and in that cross-confusion, the answers to these five questions were always shifting in and out of place. I was changing constantly, and it was giving off a confusing aura and vibe to my audience and commissioners.

What did I learn from my folly?
Know your people, or start finding them. It starts with finding yourself.

Where am myself? In other people. Figure that out.

How does that work? Everyone in the world is a signal to the source of our being. Everyone. The source of our being is primed, ready potential that simply requires a relationship as a vector to reach its destiny. Other people carry within them things that pull and tug on our souls and interests, or that make us shrivel and run in fear. But these things give us impulse and move us away and towards who we are.

I believe we owe a responsibility to ourselves to search for those things in others, and that we truly begin to know ourselves when we acknowledge that the interesting thing we find in other people: Comes from somewhere outside of ourselves.

And that process gets terribly messy, which is why I've learned to start bringing it back to those five simple questions.

Why those five simple questions though?

I plan to be around for a long time as an artist, and I never truly grappled with the seriousness of that before. It's easy to fall into a trap of simply doing what I'm doing to make art and passing along to the next idea, and I did that most of my life without considering where it was going and how I wanted it to be.

So I want to share with everyone what I've learned so that they can understand what I believe are good rules to guiding oneself into kinky prosperity as an artist in a community.

Finding one's people and understanding the kind of relationship you want to have with those people is important. They can be geared towards encouraging more collaborative creative work, or intended for inspiring perverse feelings in each other for the fun of it, or to explore ideas in conversation, or to do art trades, etc.

So, when dealing with others, I now add this question to my list:

"Is this the kind of relationship I want to live with, and where is it going?"

What relationship do I want to have with my kinky toon audience, and where is it going?

It's going far away from explicit sexual imagery, and even further into kinky imagery that rides the fence, for one. I don't ever want to talk to my audience about their direct sexual impulse, it grosses me out and makes me uncomfortable, but I do enjoy talking around a kinky topic to build it up, while never touching directly on the sexual energy another might have towards it. I like being able to talk through and create complex kinky scenarios and ideas with people for the sake of roleplay or creating art(same thing) without ever getting into explicit sex, in order to play with dynamics and ideas.

I want to be able to inspire people down a sexual path, and not go down it with them, because I'm that big of a pervert, and the ideas and pictures I play with are just that kinky and awesome. But to also still be there to talk with the sexual perverts about ideas in general, because I don't want to close my mind off completely.

So my key suggestion to artists seeking art friends, especially artists who want to take commissions?

Figure out how you want to talk with people to make fun and make art with them. Try out ways of engaging in conversation or asking questions to bring out fun ideas and feelings in each other that help make the art flow and that does inspire. Don't only simply make what's great then masturbate.

I don't believe online art is about making sure you can churn out a picture for money in time and make a living, I think this drawing for others/commission stuff is an important vector of expression and exploration that an artist, commissioner/friend needs to take seriously as a realm of mastery to engage with, because it points to the souls in each other.

I believe it's an utterfly foolish philosophy of some artists and some commissioners to be searching for "Ready-Made" Clients/Artists when it comes to drawing an idea outside of a template for a commission. Sometimes a client just wants an artist as a tool to draw the idea, and that's fine. And sometimes an artist just wants a client that has an idea they want to have paid drawn, everything already prepared, shazam. And that's fine and great, too.

But I believe that growth, and the true soul required to live a human life, are found in exploring that realm of communication that happens between two people before something new is created.

I believe that that realm is communication is where people find themselves, and see each other, and make friends.

Anyway, those are my thoughts again.

Questions again:

For dealing with OTHERS(People, communities, circles):
"Is this the kind of relationship I want to live with, and where is it going?"


"What do I want?"
"What do I expect of myself?"
"What image and impression am I giving everyone about myself?"
"What is expected of me?"
"Are any of these things in conflict with each other? Resolve conflicts by prioritizing questions in descending order."


Thanks fo reading. Myehkobold.