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Heart meds
6 months ago
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I'm now on meds for my heart. They are working, but...creating depression on top of the clinical depression I already have. I just got some new meds that hopefully won't do that, but we'll see what they do, instead. It's going to take forever to get testing done to find out what's wrong, because medicaid denied my nuclear stress test. The doc is fighting it, but seems to think it wise to do a simple stress test because chances are good we won't get it approved. So I can find out IF my heart is functioning, I just won't know HOW MUCH. And my sonagram to see if there are blockages is all the way out to July.
Add to that dad's cancer (we now know it's stage 4), the weather constantly messing with me body and mind, and politics...my mind exists in a state of constant worry and often fear.
I won't stop fighting but...I could really use a vacation.
Add to that dad's cancer (we now know it's stage 4), the weather constantly messing with me body and mind, and politics...my mind exists in a state of constant worry and often fear.
I won't stop fighting but...I could really use a vacation.
It can be dark.
It can feel like there's no way out.
At the end of it, all we can do is fight for our right to exist.
But unless we fight for it, we're just taking the fast track to permanent sleep.
Do what ya can. At least then you can hold your head high and tell yourself that no matter how much they kept you down, you at least moved forward. No matter how slow, or incremental it may be.