So, bluntly 2 of the 4 people living in this house might be dead soon. One for sure, and one might get better but we aren’t sure yet. In a way it ties back to the huge debt that I made a journal about before. The one we know for sure is dying has been lying to mom that he’s broke but has managed to squirrel away thousands of dollars while living rent free here instead of helping her with bills like I have been and I’m actually freaking broke -.- so after his cremation costs she’ll be able to cut down a lot of the debt. I’ll still be trying to get my art stuff together to make up for the rest.

Maybe it makes me an asshole but since these two have been out of the house it’s felt so clear and relaxed despite the medical stress. I am actually allowed in the kitchen again, I can wash clothes and shower whenever I want to, I can listen to music without headphones and sing along like a weirdo, and the house is so quiet. It’s been really nice feeling.

But I’ve also been sitting here feeling really dumb, since I’d bought art/adopts before the debt happened that were delivered after making the post about needing to make money. Makes me feel bad. Like people are gonna be mad at me for posting things I bought after winging about a debt x.x but all the art is so pretty and the artists deserve to have their art spread around so I will probably just post them soon anyway.

Life is a bundle of weird stress