You are not alone. I can't make money with my art either, its that I don't find motivation to draw for money. So I chose to suffer in my work. I am often in the background of many social circles and even deeper in the shaodw, easily forgotten. No matter how I try to come up, I am quickly excused back to shadows.

I do feel you in regards of people around me talking to me. I often shut them out and be at my peace. I just don't like to listen to things that I have no interest in.

My grandmother wanted me to get married and have children. I flatly shut that down on the spot as I have absolutely no interest in marriage and child rising. Housing in my region is insanely expensive for a little one room space that money that I earn won't get me. I hope that you are not alone in failures.

Making "art" (filth) is more freeing experience for me provided I have no one to disturb me.

Those people "know-it-alls" thinks so narrowly on how to live a life and expect us to follow in their footsteps regardless of our problems. I find that its best to do what we want over what they want. Even if we have to suffer through employment to live it out.

I want to send over a hug and let you know, you are not alone.

I like and hate that you summed this up so well.

I guess explaining that to Granny went flawlessly. Like how I try to do every day with mine and they just don't get it. The only thing they see is that im a degenerate for drawing smut and prtobabléy that's why they don't have their grandchildren.

My granny was on declining health, she passed away without ever seeing the dream of having grandchildren. Then a year later my family celebrated with the other extended family for the first time since a decade before my birth.

But they do not know that I deal in same arts as you are possibly a step or two further. I would be in deep trouble if they find out, especially my catholic aunt.

Yeah, that really sucks.

After so many sucking I could be sold as a vacumcleaner.

Naw, it's THEM, you, are doin' the best you can. Keep at it.

First off your art is amazing. The level of detail in your work is something to behold. Second. Family is all too often disappointing. Everyone wants you su succeed by their expectations, and do jot care about your own happiness. It’s insanely frustrating but please hang in there!

Yes I know it would be a bit easier if I could have moved out like my parents did in their 20s and start my own life. So we would meet less, and the daily scrutiny would only happen maybe 4-5 times a year. That would have been nice.

You deserve more than you have. Don't give up.

I'm not giving up just being a crybaby about it.

I hope your next day will be better than your last.

Thanks.

You know, I sadly have a reply to this that I used to say when someone says nice things like this to me: Usually it goes like "Have a good day," and I'm like "There is no risk of it".

I like your art but I doubt I could afford any, how much would it be for a character or two?

Kind of you, but I'm not able to take on more work to the work I already have, so I haven't done commissions for years now.

My entire journal is more about not progressing monetarily as I get older. It's not like totally broke, but for the amount of work I've been doing for the past 2 decades (as a middle manager) should have reached certain things by now. That didn't come by, and I'm sick and tired of hearing it every day, and the blame mostly falls on that I like to draw pron in the little free time I have.

Depending on where you live the economy isn't really set up where people can do what they like and do well for themselves, it's all a b out profits and the tip top getting more and those underneath just maintaining at best

You've got a hobby that you love.

Yeah, only I love it, and you guys in the internet. The rest would call the exorcist.

I really love your work <3 And How much would a commission cost? I assumed you werent open since I dont see any mention of a commissions being open or prices

You assumed right, I'm not open.
I'm struggling too much in life to be able to offer services that would meet the standards.

Heard of "Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs". To do commissions, I would need to be somewhere near the top of that pyramid. I'm sitting on its second level. Basic needs checked, for now, because who knows when the war in the neighborhood would push me back to the bottom or into a mass grave.

That's some top notch filth you got there, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. And don't let anyone tie your value to the gears of a capitalist meat grinder, or the grey rock of arbitrary social norms, or anything else that isn't you.

Sadly, it looks like to people around me, all that matters is the value of things. Even if it was not smut, maybe something else like comic book art, things would be the same at the end. It's just drawing, no one can get rich by drawing. You are like a big child. Go back to the factory and start climbing up the ladder so you can finally earn millions.

Where does this attitude lead after 20+ years of hard work? Total dissolution with the world, to the point that I feel like there is no good job exists at all. Only little struggle and big struggle for me. I'm like not the child of the Ceo or something to get a free monthly wage.

So, how many of them are "earning millions?" I thoroughly understand how pointless and hopeless it all feels; so much has been stolen by people who deserve so little, and they justify it by tricking everyone else into telling themselves that the only valid reason for existence is to give everything to the thieves. It's all a heartless game invented by cheaters, and nobody wants to admit that they can't win by design. As much as you can, I think that you should find your value outside of that game. Survival is challenging, but the fact is that you've already created more of cultural value than most do in a lifetime. You are a perceived threat to their norms, and that's why they make a show of looking down on you. It's a bluff, and even they may not understand that.

Life regrets are the worst.

I touh not regret it to much just pissed that it comes up in conversatioon more often than I like.

Indeed, my family was cool about most of it because we were all having troubles but we took care of each other.

Your work has a value beyond what money can buy! I saw your art about eight years ago, and it motivated me to start drawing furry art. If it weren’t for you, I probably wouldn’t be drawing at all! I’ve always wanted to thank you someday. In my otherwise meaningless life, your art became my inspiration. I really love your work!

Happy to create value, and make other people degenerate just like me, as the other around me would say. :)

I like your stuff.

I have no advice, I'm not very good as an artist and no one cares. I received pretty much the same reaction from my family as others have shared. Not sure that helps any.

Well, come to the "your disappointing son" club, then, or should we call "the where did I go wrong" club?