Hello Everyone, now for nearly all my life I have only wanted connection and their have been times I have seen amazing kindness and compassion from people and I really have felt blessed :D

But in my later Years it just feels trying to connect with people it is too exhausting.....I kinda feel I wanna go back to a time I didn't have so much Responsibility, It Truly feels like Yes doing all of this stuff is important But it makes me feel with me working so much like a normal full time job for the first time in so long I just am reminded that I am autistic and well I have limits to how much I can Truly do.

I work at Goodwill now and it is a good job and I feel lt really could take care of me. But man is the work physically Exhausting . My other point is Trying to date and connect with others.....honestly that thing were they say find love early I understand. Like ...honestly I had a lovely date with someone new and after it was over she started ghosting me im like WTF Ghosting what are we 23 or 24????


Faceplams......I understand.............people wanna be nice but shit it about respect. I invited you over and interduce you to my family and you just end up ghosting me. Not even say hey i enjoyed my time but im not feeling the energy.

I been going to the dentist again and whooooooa, I am gonna need like a Grand to get some dental work done honestly i wish he just pull everything out and give me dentures at this point.
I am gonna need uugh maybe about 3k of money for some custom made dentures i think. >W< I do have dental insurances but idk how much of it it would cover. I pray at lease half of it if possible >W<

I have been trying to reconnect back on here with other people and idk I just feel....like what the point. Most people i find now can blow up at you over the pettiest of things and what not >W<.
And I am truly glad to have a full time job.

But honestly I just feel like idk maybe a part time job would just be dandy I barely feel like i have any free time anymore and Free time really was apart of who I was.....I really do ask my self if you work 8 or more hours a day almost every week and you have to do a lot of physical work. How do you even have a life.

if you do not know I live in the USA and omfg I am like i understand Bernie Sanders idea for the 4 day work week ......that shit needs to fucking come here to our fucking country...only 32 hours a week counts as full time fuck yes and sign me up for it.

Now i bring the men going their own way movement I feel like it really speaks to me

Men not dating......men not going out men just keeping to themselves...not making or trying to make it more friends......and honestly I was thinking that is hard for me because this desire to connect with others comes from years of not having a lot of friends or being able to go to events with other people hell I never even with to my Prom :C.

But after a Crazy last Year and living withmy Ex It made me understand how important Peace really is and how peace of mind really offers you this kind of Clarity that you cannot find anywhere else.
umm,...Im sorry everyone I have more to say but let me just post some videos for you all if you wanna understand some of the Metown Movement.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DsMTxOQut7M Men Going Their Own WAY As A Way Of Life | Why Men Join And Its Benefits (MGTOW)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=834.....YAEeM&t=5s Why Men Going Their Own Way (#MGTOW) Is No Longer Optional

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fqu85sQYeoM I Don’t Know What Society Wants From Me! | Why More and More Men Are ‘Checking Out’