Maybe talking about it and getting it off my chest helped but chatting with folks and friends who have reached out definitely has. I’ve also been a lot more communicative with my two older sisters who’ve been very supportive. Besides already trying therapy again, I’ve decided to give medication for depression and anxiety another try as well. My real issue is i struggle to not focus on past “trauma”. My brain keeps replaying my most miserable moments when I’m feeling down/depressed. It feels rather involuntary a lot of the time. I may even give medication for adhd a try after I’ve stabilized out. Hoping to have motivation to get back into hobbies and get off this couch that I spend most of my weekdays on when I’m not at work.
I been trying to use my blusky for interacting with the furry community more. Just little steps towards feeling like I’m a part of something in life. But thanks to my friends, I finally been able to experience that cheerful, goofy, and positive side of who I am and want to be. Even if just in small bursts.