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What goes up, must come down. Edit: Further Problems
4 months ago
Welcome to WhiteFoxofSimi's Update and life Journal.
So, while I have moved out and been in a much better situation with my roommates and my friends being so supportive along the way.
However, December of last year I lost my Father. He passed away around Christmas and I can't travel back for any reason. But, there were some 'circumstances' that surrounded this that I can't forgive him before he passed.
But now... another problem: My mother was diagnosed with Spinal Cancer. She got out of the hospital and now she's back in... and not doing well. I'm prepared for the worst, I did not expect either of these things to come to pass, but I would rather her no longer be in any pain... or suffering as she has been.
To everyone ahead of time: Thank you for your wishes, prayers and support it means a lot.
I'm just gonna probably need time is all.
Edit:
It is with a heavy heart, 6/16/2025 that my Mother has passed away. Last year was my Father and my Mother followed not too far behind. Neither of them will be able to see their Grandchildren if I have any or if my little brother and sister have any. I can't hear her voice one last time and tell her I love her. She's gone. He's gone.
My lack of posting here will probably still be kind of 'ghostly' where I haven't been able to. Besides that I still can't go out there because it's just... that expensive. I will be taking my time to mourn, but... again... Thank you all.
If you've heard it from before from someone else: You really don't know what you've had... until it's gone.
Edit 2.0: My family asks me to call them, I took the time to do so. And they have yet to call me back. Not once have they even tried to reach out to me... I have let them know my times I am available and it's... this is beyond me why they won't reach out when I do. At this point, my REAL family is not even related to me by blood anymore. I never had felt more truly alone than this. I realized I wasn't alone thanks to individuals reaching out to me and reminding me that I'm not.
However, this doesn't change how much it hurts me.
To everyone who has wished me well and condolences and more I do appreciate you. You have not gone unheard. I have been busy as my Roommates and I have been planning to move again and I need to change jobs once more. But, I now have managerial experience under my belt. So things have improved more in my favor, hopefully. For now, the planned move is October 31st.
However, December of last year I lost my Father. He passed away around Christmas and I can't travel back for any reason. But, there were some 'circumstances' that surrounded this that I can't forgive him before he passed.
But now... another problem: My mother was diagnosed with Spinal Cancer. She got out of the hospital and now she's back in... and not doing well. I'm prepared for the worst, I did not expect either of these things to come to pass, but I would rather her no longer be in any pain... or suffering as she has been.
To everyone ahead of time: Thank you for your wishes, prayers and support it means a lot.
I'm just gonna probably need time is all.
Edit:
It is with a heavy heart, 6/16/2025 that my Mother has passed away. Last year was my Father and my Mother followed not too far behind. Neither of them will be able to see their Grandchildren if I have any or if my little brother and sister have any. I can't hear her voice one last time and tell her I love her. She's gone. He's gone.
My lack of posting here will probably still be kind of 'ghostly' where I haven't been able to. Besides that I still can't go out there because it's just... that expensive. I will be taking my time to mourn, but... again... Thank you all.
If you've heard it from before from someone else: You really don't know what you've had... until it's gone.
Edit 2.0: My family asks me to call them, I took the time to do so. And they have yet to call me back. Not once have they even tried to reach out to me... I have let them know my times I am available and it's... this is beyond me why they won't reach out when I do. At this point, my REAL family is not even related to me by blood anymore. I never had felt more truly alone than this. I realized I wasn't alone thanks to individuals reaching out to me and reminding me that I'm not.
However, this doesn't change how much it hurts me.
To everyone who has wished me well and condolences and more I do appreciate you. You have not gone unheard. I have been busy as my Roommates and I have been planning to move again and I need to change jobs once more. But, I now have managerial experience under my belt. So things have improved more in my favor, hopefully. For now, the planned move is October 31st.
My sympathies to you