I went to my hysterectomy consultation this morning and the surgeon is comfortable with the weight I am at. He said we can move forward with my procedure sometime in August or September. I have no savings, and no one to take care of me, but I am excited this is finally going to happen. I am mostly grieving how I don't have a spouse to be at my side throughout my healing instead of being grateful I'm a step closer to college, honestly. I'm scared. My insurance isn't even going to assign me a care giver.

I really need to figure out how to scare up some extra cash. I need something to make reading in bed more comfortable (something to prop myself up with!) a special toilet stool, and a pillow for comfort. I've also gotta stock up on stuff that's easy to eat without help since again probably not even friends will stop by to help me or my emotional support cat.

I'm spending the remainder of my day resting because it's so hot and I've got therapy tomorrow. Today was incredibly emotional. I'm thrilled the surgeon listened to me, though. Especially about my pain. They're going to toss a little oxy on top of my methadone in order to prevent me from spiraling into utter agony. For obvious reasons, I am shocked I was treated like an adult and given compassionate enough care in this regard.

If I start selling originals, feel free to suggest some content you might find buy-able. I was thinking I could do some more abstract art (just whatever comes out next time I dance with datura) or some cliche' fun themes like my favorite My Little Pony characters, Poke'mon, etc. Maybe I'll do a series with animal skulls and various poison path flowers, too... hmm...

I'll try to come up with stuff I can post here for a change. lol