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A personal update (vent).
3 months ago
Due to my outbursts in two Discord servers that I will not name of, I've decided to step down from social media for awhile; I don't know for how long.
I'm gonna call two numbers for therapy tomorrow morning and hopefully I'll find one that's available; or I'll have to wait until next month on the 11th for my checkup appointment and ask my physician if he knows any that'll accept my health insurance.
I'm tired. I'm done. I'm not giving up, but ever since I joined DeviantArt back in October 2012 and FurAffinity since March 2013....I haven't changed. I still have issues that I keep allowing to repeat nonstop. This isn't the rant/vent journal I mentioned on BlueSky and Twitter before, but that's still happening soon.
As of right now, I'm turning off my notes on FA. Along with protecting my BlueSky and Twitter accounts and disabling DMs on both platforms, and whenever I'm back home in two hours from now I'm turning off both DMs and friend requests on Discord; Telegram I'll fiddle with the settings later. If I don't know you personally, or if I don't talk to you as much, I have to ask y'all to please leave me be; for any who are already on my friends lists and I don't talk to y'all as much don't take it personally. Please.
I can't even bring myself to draw because I'm never satisfied with my own arts, even with marginal improvements I made. That and I don't bother owning up to the GED diploma I've earned nine years ago so I'm not a very educated man anymore, nor do I even know what my own IQ is. I don't know if I'll have time to re-educate myself.
For now, I'll try my luck with looking for therapy tomorrow morning. But trying to socialize with people, wanting to hang out with them in person or in VR chat, yeah....right now, those interests of mine are done. Nobody in this fandom are my therapists or punching bags, so I shouldn't bother being open anymore; and even if I'm all happy-go-lucky rainbows and sunshine in the future, I still wouldn't want a group of friends or relationships as I should be more content with loving myself more than everyone else around me.
Again, I'm done. Not with art, but with everything else. Done.
I'm gonna call two numbers for therapy tomorrow morning and hopefully I'll find one that's available; or I'll have to wait until next month on the 11th for my checkup appointment and ask my physician if he knows any that'll accept my health insurance.
I'm tired. I'm done. I'm not giving up, but ever since I joined DeviantArt back in October 2012 and FurAffinity since March 2013....I haven't changed. I still have issues that I keep allowing to repeat nonstop. This isn't the rant/vent journal I mentioned on BlueSky and Twitter before, but that's still happening soon.
As of right now, I'm turning off my notes on FA. Along with protecting my BlueSky and Twitter accounts and disabling DMs on both platforms, and whenever I'm back home in two hours from now I'm turning off both DMs and friend requests on Discord; Telegram I'll fiddle with the settings later. If I don't know you personally, or if I don't talk to you as much, I have to ask y'all to please leave me be; for any who are already on my friends lists and I don't talk to y'all as much don't take it personally. Please.
I can't even bring myself to draw because I'm never satisfied with my own arts, even with marginal improvements I made. That and I don't bother owning up to the GED diploma I've earned nine years ago so I'm not a very educated man anymore, nor do I even know what my own IQ is. I don't know if I'll have time to re-educate myself.
For now, I'll try my luck with looking for therapy tomorrow morning. But trying to socialize with people, wanting to hang out with them in person or in VR chat, yeah....right now, those interests of mine are done. Nobody in this fandom are my therapists or punching bags, so I shouldn't bother being open anymore; and even if I'm all happy-go-lucky rainbows and sunshine in the future, I still wouldn't want a group of friends or relationships as I should be more content with loving myself more than everyone else around me.
Again, I'm done. Not with art, but with everything else. Done.
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