Hey there everybody, it's me again Vinny Fox, coming around again. Sorry it's been so long again since posting anything. I've just been going through a lot of life changes lately. There was a big move from one state to the other and traded one unstable living situation for another. So my moods have been up, down, and all around since around September or so. It's made it hard to focus on many things in my life, including my art. That lack of focus was really eating me up, and caused tons of anxiety which spiraled into depression. However, I've finally gotten myself a nice, stable (and quiet) place to live for a while. Once I had that, I was able to focus a bit more, and begin to look at my own self and try to pick apart my own problems. Turns out I had serious mommy issues, and I confronted those in a less than stellar way, to put it bluntly. Uhm, it wasn't fun, there was a lot of heartache, anguish, regret, and crying, oh yes there was crying. However, through all the mental racing, I arrived at answers, answers to questions that had been banging around in my head tearing things up for almost 20 years. To be able to take a step back with new information in hand and observe the situation for what it was/is, well, it finally let me draw some big conclusions at long last. Basically my mom has Borderline/Narcisstic Personality Disorder and it's been eating away at her her entire life. It's gotten worse with her age, and a lot of those negative traits had been passed onto me. And once I found that out and put the pieces together, it was like a lightning bolt through my mind. BOOM! There's the answer.

So it was much easier to put into perspective memories I have new and old, and rationalize them in a better light. Not saying that excuses the abusive behavior of the past, and she's definitely going to need some professional help, but now I can at least see where it's all coming from. I can't say things are forgiven, but there is closure at least, and for the first time in a long time I feel like I've gotten some true inner peace. I never realized how turbulent I had gotten over the years until I stepped out of it. If it were not for my lovely mate, the rest of my family, and some of the most wonderful people I've met with here over the years, I could have never reached any of these conclusions, and so --THANK YOU ALL, EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU ❤️❤️❤️. I couldn't do it without you ^^!

SO! With my newfound confidence, I'm eager to get back doing what I love the most, drawing all manner of fuzzy (and wet) shenanigans for the lovely people ^^! Uhm, I had gotten behind on my commissions there for a bit, and to those I kept waiting I do apologize. I've pretty much cleared them out though, and ready to try some more. For anyone curious, go check out my prices, which you can access via my profile page.
I also have a tremendous backlog of pictures that I need to post, and I'll be doing that over the days and weeks to come. Most of them are colored, I've been practicing with those quite a bit, but a lot of them are sketches too. I have so many sketches that I've accumulated over the years, and I'd like to share some of the cuter ones. I realize I'm never going to be able to get to them all realistically, so I'd hate for them to go unseen forever. Who knows, maybe somebody will like them :P. Some of them could even be turned into YCHs if people like them enough. So we'll see, I'm eager to see how things are gonna go now that my mind is a bit clearer and not so muddied with negative thoughts and anxiety. I look forward to hearing from all of you! ALL faves/watches/comments are highly appreciated! Thank you to everyone that likes my stuff, it's a real confidence booster ^^!

Well that's it I guess! Kind of what's been going on, where I've been, and how I've been doing over the last few months. There's not much else to say I think. Thank you for reading! I hope you all have a wonderful day ^^ ❤️❤️❤️! -VF

PS- I was gone for so long that there was even a small rumor going around saying that I was DEAD! Oh my xP. Well that's certainly not the case hehe. I'm well and alive and feeling great, and ready to try again ^^.
PPS- I have exceeded 1000 watchers! ! Yahoo! Thank you again everybody ^^!