(squeezes gently) You will recover. You can recover. You've fought this battle before, you can fight it once again. We're right behind you. We love you.

Sincerely,
The Cheshire Cat's Master

You're loved sweetie

Ive had this moment recently, and you can get through it.
I was sick May though June and they thought I might have a brain tumor. I spent another month hating everything and wanting to end it all. I was eventually diagnosed with Meniere's and was still lost in my depression. But I reached out like you are rn. There are more people who care about you being here than you realize, and there is nothing wrong with asking for or seeking out help during the hard times. Therapy and rest helped me. I hope something similar can help you.

DON'T SAY THINGS LIKE THAT! We're here to help you through this!

I'll always be here.
Never give up on yourself...
If you were to die I'd never forgive myself for being able to of done something and just lazed about.

No, you don't. It's just more depression. Ignore the depressive thoughts, because they're wrong.