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Mini-Hiatus: Update
3 months ago
So the Equipment came in. Got Assembled. And has been in routine use for roughly 2 weeks. The Chronic Pain in my Lower Back and Hips is dissipating. So that part went as planned. I have a convention coming up next weekend. And I only plan on attending One Day. (The convention center is in a shitty spot and commuting to it is a royal pain in the ass.) Another convention is later in August and THAT will be the TRUE testing grounds. But something is amiss as I prepare to get back into the swing of things in August. The Mindset. The Mentality. The Motivation.
Which leads me to the NEXT hurdle. How do I get my groove back? Over the months I have landed into some gnarly discord servers. The Quicksand and KU Blob communities in particular have been mega-supportive. And I even have consistent reactions from folks on Socials, like Bluesky. But the mental demons keep dragging me back into negativity. And my financial situation keeps getting dimmer and dimmer. My only hope is finding income through art. But I don't have enough Private Material for a Subscribestar/Patreon scheme. And Commissions... *snort* I heard a LOT of horror stories. And I still feel my works never impressed previous clients enough to be return customers. *sighs*
Financial struggles aside I just feel I can never be good enough to Digitally Ink or Color. I would love a NSFW Coach to help me navigate and learn "Clip Studio". But all I can find is SFW folks who have no idea I draw Boobs, Damsels, and Butts. Well some of them know the Boobs & Butts. But only ONE knows my secret identity and they are certainly not coach material. More so support, than anything else. I also need to cease this charade of keep my SFW and NSFW folks separate. I just think Degenerates will flood my SFW world with "Draw more Boobs". And my SFW world wouldn't know what to do. And if I flip the coin and tell my SFW world about my Dark Fantasies and Passions in NSFW art they'll just stick their nose up and leave. Or worse yet cost me a job or something.
So to recap. My physicality is improving. My Finances are failing. And my mentality is in a Cross-Fire as I juggle SFW/NSFW problems. *sighs* Did I leave anything out?
PS...
If you ARE interested in Traditional Commissions. Scanned in at 600dpi. Shout "Traditional? Yes, PLZ." on my FA Profile. And if I get enough interest. I will make a follow Up journal discussing signing up for some Commissions. Fair?
~ZD~
Which leads me to the NEXT hurdle. How do I get my groove back? Over the months I have landed into some gnarly discord servers. The Quicksand and KU Blob communities in particular have been mega-supportive. And I even have consistent reactions from folks on Socials, like Bluesky. But the mental demons keep dragging me back into negativity. And my financial situation keeps getting dimmer and dimmer. My only hope is finding income through art. But I don't have enough Private Material for a Subscribestar/Patreon scheme. And Commissions... *snort* I heard a LOT of horror stories. And I still feel my works never impressed previous clients enough to be return customers. *sighs*
Financial struggles aside I just feel I can never be good enough to Digitally Ink or Color. I would love a NSFW Coach to help me navigate and learn "Clip Studio". But all I can find is SFW folks who have no idea I draw Boobs, Damsels, and Butts. Well some of them know the Boobs & Butts. But only ONE knows my secret identity and they are certainly not coach material. More so support, than anything else. I also need to cease this charade of keep my SFW and NSFW folks separate. I just think Degenerates will flood my SFW world with "Draw more Boobs". And my SFW world wouldn't know what to do. And if I flip the coin and tell my SFW world about my Dark Fantasies and Passions in NSFW art they'll just stick their nose up and leave. Or worse yet cost me a job or something.
So to recap. My physicality is improving. My Finances are failing. And my mentality is in a Cross-Fire as I juggle SFW/NSFW problems. *sighs* Did I leave anything out?
PS...
If you ARE interested in Traditional Commissions. Scanned in at 600dpi. Shout "Traditional? Yes, PLZ." on my FA Profile. And if I get enough interest. I will make a follow Up journal discussing signing up for some Commissions. Fair?
~ZD~
