Hello guys
These have been very complicated weeks, But more the last 2-3 weeks lately, I was posting the situation more closely on Patreon and IG, but here I hadn't done it because of the hiatus, I was out and put my to-dos on hold to take care of my little dog. He had an accident and I had to be with him 24/7, sleeping next to him, helping him to eat, I had hope that he would get up and take him to veterinarians and specialists to find good news and a way to give him physical therapy, but in the end his neurologist diagnosed him with Schiff-Sherrington syndrome and because of his age it was already more than critical to put him in surgery, and that's not even counting the things that had to be done to see if he qualified, including x-rays, magnetic resonance imaging, etc. 1-2 days before I let him go he had started to stop eating and was breathing with difficulty, I knew something was more than wrong, he was no longer sleeping because of the discomfort, he was no longer defecating, he only drank water and had to that adjusting him every few hours in his bed was a martyrdom for him, I consulted with his main veterinarian and there was only one answer, The day I feared most had arrived.
I can only say that he left in peace, looking into my eyes and I never let go his little paw or stopped petting him until his last breath. I couldn't allow him to spend another night suffering like that.So with all the pain in my heart I let him go, because to love is to let go too and I always looked out for his well-being. It would have been very selfish of me for him to live only for me.
He left peacefully and lying in his bed and on the blanket that I gave him with which I came into the world, he left this existential plane
The only thing that consoles me is that he was a very loved, spoiled dog and I gave everything for him. I want to thank you enormously for the times you supported my dog to have a quality of life in his last days, You who supported me were more than important to me and Chimino's life.
Today marks one week since he left, at 6:33 PM Mexico time I'm not going to lie, I can completely miss him at home, I donated my dog's medication to help future puppies. I don't think I'll ever heal this wound, you just learn to live with it, he was my first dog and the best, if there is a kind of heaven for those little ones I hope he's running around and snooping around everywhere he went, he was a curious little boy who liked to sniff everything
I know I'm on hiatus but I want to open just a small slot to be able to cover Chimino's funeral expenses, I was ruined with the medication and specialist appointments with veterinarians and mom had to give me a loan so I can rest my little one and have his ashes. I would greatly appreciate this support. I just wanted to vent a little about his week-long absence.
Hope you're doing well guys, I hope to return soon, for now it's still complicated for me to return to work with this, I've tried but I still burst into tears easily, the loss of a pet/family is heartbreaking. I hope for your understanding... thanks
-Oliver F