I think I figure out what is wrong with my back I've been having issues with nerves. That probably part of the reason why my legs give out. Also might be getting cortisone shots in my back. I've been trying to draw a little bit more often but about half the time my pain getting in the way. Also been messing around different ways to digital paint. I think I still don't have the hang of it. also my depression been bad I just glad I am not hearing voices or seeing stuff.