I don't know if I should make this a cry for help but I don't know what to do, think, or feel anymore. I'm not safe at home thanks to my abusive, narc father, and I have no means of leaving. And I can't handle it anymore. Every day has been nothing but survival mode and nothing else. I'm sick of having to take care of him (basically forced to since he refuses to better himself).

No boundaries, no emotion, just forced to take everything as is with no reaction. Even a simple frown makes him yell at me. I'm nothing but property; never acknowledged as a human being. And I want out.

At this point, I'm desperate to leave but hopeless at the same time. Economy is trash, cost of living is high, no job of my own, not to mention the lack of resources or NO resources in my area.