Honestly, I've been struggling with the same thing and have been sleeping 10+ hours or more because I do not want to face reality.
Meds and being around people do help boost my mood personally, although I still want to isolate myself from everyone and everything. I sometimes get bursts of motivation that help me get through 2-3 days before I spiral again - is it similar for you?

Something positive is that your place in this community and as an artist has made someone smile, someone feel welcome, someone feel less alone about their interests. I do not know you that well, nor do I engage that much, but I do keep up with your TG channel, Bluesky, etc. and it's really nice to see you post, even if it's small updates with what's going on in your life. Of course, go at your pace and take care of yourself first, but know that you have us on the sidelines rootin' for you and cheering you on!

Also, we live in the same timeline as cheese quesadillas so, that's a cool thing too.

I ran out of peppers and onions hut have everything else I could want for a Quesadilla. Hopefully my boss at work has done some trades at the weekend markets we might have some giveaway produce in the walk in. But a quesadilla sounds so amazing right now.

But yes. My motivation comes in waves. Highs and lows. And no, its not a bipolar thing. I am very well aware its just the general beatdown of the world. But 2-3 days is more than I have been getting, but I guess its just happening more frequently for a couple hours of motivation at a time.

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Hmm not sure if this will help, but you are a wonderful person and you are doing a good job in life, because we're not perfect and that's okay.

The world kinda blows right now, so i dont blame you are all

In times like this i like to think outward
Look up at the sky and remember all the crazy hard stuff that was over come for these moments to happen
Millions of explosions in the stars, proto animals crawling onto land, our ancestors treking over mountains and seas, all the wars and chaos, that humanity has gone though, but not because of its tragedy but because we overcame it, weve been pushed to the brink so many times and yet we sit here now talking
It makes me realize that even will all the bullshit we see daily that in 10 or 15 years we will look back and acknowledge that we were the ones that made it through

Im not sure if that's very comforting ^^;

But my point was that no hardship lasts forever and if we push forward we eventually find the peace after the storm

To be honest with you, its better leave the internet for even more time, just draw what you love do, but not make it public, i think everything should be better if you leave the technology for more longer.

Try to do things that is better for your health, maybe excersise a bit for example, try to sow plants.

I am also concerned with what happens with internet, in which makes me stays more away from internet in my case, but just for important stuff like buying stuff.

Just stay calm and try to do things irl and not online

I've been feeling the same way recently. Going online for an escape just makes me feel trapped in merely a DIFFERENT way than IRL and it's been hard to cope when bad news comes from every little direction. It feels like everything is catered to appease the masses and not stand out; Yet at the same time, to conjure up arguments and ragebait for quick, easy, and plentiful engagement with content. It's less for the people and more a massive content farm now. That can be discouraging.

So I'll be vulnerable for a moment and maybe overly personal, but it might be good for you to hear. I apologize if it's a lot. But I'll say that despite all of this, a good while back, your art really helped me. I've got a lot of issues with accepting vulnerable parts or interests of mine including an interest in things like babyfur and ABDL content due to, to be frank, an utter lack of childhood for multiple heavy reasons. I'm tired.

Something about your style was so welcoming when I first saw it. They way you present things - The prettiness in their faces and the cute clothing you give your muses and characters. The shapes, colors, patterns... It's very made with love and something about it projects a sense of beauty while still being indulgently childish. The way you draw eyes and anatomy is so reminiscent of nostalgic media to me.

It gave me a starting point to look into this sort of content as a comfort, a fetish, a whatever blurry line it is to me - Just, something warm and inviting at the end of the day to wallow in and sigh a relieved breath out. Maybe cry into if it's a rough enough day. And your style was so sweet and felt so natural to look at that it made me feel comfortable enough to share it with others, again, as a starting point to describe things I enjoyed or did or related to for comfort. It helped me to be understood by my friends and partner. All of your muses seem so joyous, so casual, so pretty. They're just (Mostly) girls who love diapers! It just made me want to be a part of it and made me feel like I could explain that to anyone who asked, or stand up to people who bad-mouthed the concept. I found other artists and content I liked from there and really, really opened up. I smile each time you post.

I know that's a ramble and quite personal but thank you for making art. It matters and so do you. You have so much power in your creation in a positive way! All artists do, and for each comment like this, there are at least a dozen lurkers who love you. Who may also feel like your art is a soothing balm on an open wound, maybe that they're not so aware they have yet.

Please know you matter. I wish you much rest and good news.

Seeing your art pop up in my feeds never fails at making me happy and constantly reminds me and strengthens why I enjoy our community so much. I'm definitely not alone in feeling this from your art, it definitely has a positive affect in a lot of people's lives and our community.

I hope by the time you see this you're at least starting to feel better if not feeling totally back to 100% again!