You're not a failure for things not working out. We can't always help where life goes, so we just make the most of what we can.

I'm glad that you don't think I'm a failure...

its not your fault, fluffy; life dealt you a bad hand, its not your fault you got screwed over at every turn

I know it's not my fault... But I still can't help but feel like if I made different choices, I wouldn't be here today...

You made the choices you thought were the best, given what you knew then; you had no way to know what came next was to come. *hugs* you did well, all things considered

You really think so?

Sweetie, within those fucking 5 years of you being on your own you have navigated relationship issues leading to living in different places, and survived a bloody damn pandemic.. you have not failed, by any means you've succeeded where most crumple and could not. Be proud hun, be proud.

*Gives you a hug*
You really think I've succeeded?

Do you know me as one to say that which I don't mean? *hugs* yes, I do. It might be in different ways than the norm, but success is success...and that's what matters

I just hope that I'll be able to pick up the pieces somehow... I don't want to live there for any longer than I have to.