Apology
a month ago
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I wanted to apologize.
Had a really bad depression spiral yesterday and it took me to some really dark places.
Its just really hard... When you're always so alone and you text people and they don't reply.
Over.
And over.
And over.
You just start feeling like nobody cares about you... Like you're just worthless... A piece of trash.
I'm sorry, its just been really hard recently.
***
I wanted to apologize.
Had a really bad depression spiral yesterday and it took me to some really dark places.
Its just really hard... When you're always so alone and you text people and they don't reply.
Over.
And over.
And over.
You just start feeling like nobody cares about you... Like you're just worthless... A piece of trash.
I'm sorry, its just been really hard recently.
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FA+

You are not alone in your pain. You are not alone in your grief or your frustration.
And you are NOT a piece of trash.
You will be okay. It may take time. But you will be. (hugs tightly)
Sincerely,
The Cheshire Cat's Master
You're going through things that you don't know how handle. And you're going through a lot of inner pain. And sometimes you feel like you need to lash out. And sometimes there are people who don't understand. And they don't know what to say.
And those who don't want to reply, when you need to talk to someone. Those people sometimes just don't get it. Because they don't know what you're dealing with.
I know what it feels like to be ignored. It doesn't feel good. And it can hurt.. A lot. Especially if you put a lot of effort and a lot of heart into expressing yourself to someone, that you just want to share a conversation with. And to share how you feel about things. But, at the end of the day. It isn't your fault that they don't feel like returning and replying to what you have to say. Or how you feel about something.
And it's not your fault that you feel alone when you're feeling like no one notices you.
There will be people out there, that would love to pay you the time of day. To reach out. And share with you.
You just have to keep hanging in there hun..
I wish you'll be ok, and give yourself time to find peace. I hope we can talk more.