Emotional Episode
2 weeks ago
Sorry for my last journal here...for those who didn't see (because I deleted it), I posted a journal saying I wanted to delete my FA account.
Although being completely impulsive for being in the middle of a rough episode, it was true the thing I said about anxiety when searching for arts, and not feeling fitting here. Also mentioned how no one actually cared about my songs, which...well, this was a false think created by the demons in my head. I know some of you actually listen to them.
I am not often active here, but people still watches me and check my things...being song or arts. Deleting my account would kinda be a disrespectful thing towards them...this was another point on why I took my choice back.
I also post small videos, but unfortunatelly, FA doesn't have support for them...so in the end, I don't have much to post here...because I don't quite feel like flooding journals to post those small videos for you all...unless it's a long video where the efforts are worth posting here (for example, my cover of Break Stuff by Limp Bizkit)
I tend to post those small videos on my Twitter, so you can follow me there to check everytime I upload something small and silly.
I guess that's it for now...again, I'm sorry...these types of impulses were the biggest motivation I had to take my social medias away, I don't like to post things like these because I know some people doesn't like that... I appreciate anyone who's being patient with me.
Although being completely impulsive for being in the middle of a rough episode, it was true the thing I said about anxiety when searching for arts, and not feeling fitting here. Also mentioned how no one actually cared about my songs, which...well, this was a false think created by the demons in my head. I know some of you actually listen to them.
I am not often active here, but people still watches me and check my things...being song or arts. Deleting my account would kinda be a disrespectful thing towards them...this was another point on why I took my choice back.
I also post small videos, but unfortunatelly, FA doesn't have support for them...so in the end, I don't have much to post here...because I don't quite feel like flooding journals to post those small videos for you all...unless it's a long video where the efforts are worth posting here (for example, my cover of Break Stuff by Limp Bizkit)
I tend to post those small videos on my Twitter, so you can follow me there to check everytime I upload something small and silly.
I guess that's it for now...again, I'm sorry...these types of impulses were the biggest motivation I had to take my social medias away, I don't like to post things like these because I know some people doesn't like that... I appreciate anyone who's being patient with me.

fappyzergling
~fappyzergling
Thanks for sticking around, we want you here. <3

Graugh
~graugh
OP
I'll try to stick around, afterall... I know I have some watchers that followed me because of my content

Vitrius
~minerdima21
*Hugs*

Graugh
~graugh
OP
*hug*

Jegon
~jegon
you're a great artist Graugh, and we'll try to always be there to try and remind you, not only that but that you're not alone and you have people who like you, people who love you, those who care agout you, you don't have to fight your demons always alone

Graugh
~graugh
OP
Sometimes I just want to stop stressing people so much, I'm aware of my excessive negativity, not proud for being like that... I've surpassed limits that some people actually prefered to step back for their own good, I understand them. Although I can't stop blaming myself for not being able to control this... wish I could've stayed like I was more than a decade ago when I had no idea what depression felt like... but oh well, I'll try to stick around the best I can, not to shut up the voices, but at least to lower their screams