I been exposed and gone trough so much misery and pain in recent times that is getting harder and harder To keep a good mood and focus on my current tasks and artwork, is like ever growing darkness that just gets bigger. And feels I cannot catch a break. This year has been awful for myself an my family and multiple people around me and I feel like I'm slowly giving away to that.

When I wanna do things the most shit hits the fan.

is like a storm I'm fighting alone because at this point I don't know who to see as truly my friends or close people. I'm alone.

I just hope things end well, some respite or rest.