oddly, it disproportionately hurts to have admired people block me here :<

not that this account really has any identifiers. I obviously shouldn't take it personally. It's a knee-jerk impulse reaction to overthink and ruminate about this kind of trivial online stuff :S

I just wonder what causes it! I hope to improve / not weird people out.
This is something of an addictive with husk of an account with only favs, no submissions.

I don't dare reach out to them on tg abt it (already interacted, not under this name), weirdest most obsessive confrontation. ignorance is bliss, etc

more overly selfAware rambling:
any normal person surely would've moved on before writing this out! but i'm both fixatey and procrastinatey rn, dangerCombo. :w: