I know, the title's a little bit on the dramatic side, but I started this wanting to give you all an update on my recent absence from online life... And for the life of me, I had a hard time figuring out exactly where I am.

I posted about this on Bluesky recently, but I am so very tired of online life at the moment... Every day feels like a struggle to keep going, what with countries putting in age verification laws and platforms forcing out adult content, it is getting very stressful figuring out where - or even, if - I belong.

All of this has had an impact on my mental health, which in turn has recently had an impact on my physical health too... I'm exhausted from stress and lack of sleep, and it's been bleeding into my offline life in ways I don't care for.

On top of that, I'm currently having something akin to an identity crisis with my work... I came into the year with a lot of plans for series that I want to share witht he world, but instead I have found myself jumping from project to project in an attempt to keep myself busy. It's been good, and I've worked with some amazing people, but... I once read that our action reveal our true intentions, and that if I am not actively working towards what I have planned to, then I may not really want it. And that troubles me, if I'm being honest.

All of this to say: I love writing, and I wanna find a way to keep doing it. But I need to start figuring out what I want to create, and to do that I need to be a little selfish for a change and focus on my own needs. If inspiration hits me on something small I will be happy to share, but I think it's safe to say that my output moving forward is not going to be on the regular.

We all come across a crossroads at some point in our lives. I'll let you know when I figure out which direction I take.